HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011!!!!

wrapping up 2010

it will be 2011 in few more hours!!!!!!!!!!
fuh!! 2010 is a year that changes my life so much...
is it?? guess so
2010 in a glance:
its my 1st year after high school
high school was over
SPM result was out
enrolled into one of the high learning institutions in Malaysia
i got my drving license
experienced many new experiences
met many beautiful and nice people
made a lot of tough decisions
i knew better about Christ..praise be to Lord..
learned many new things
landed on the course that i never think of to take..
brothers!!!!!!!!!!!i miss you..

good luck to all PMR candidates 2010

tomorrow is the big day yet not a dooms day
ggod luck to mrsm kota kinabalu PMR candidates 2010
hope you all will get a flying colours result!!!!!!!!!!
make our maktab proud!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
especially to jamie, nathan, easleey, farelle, and the rest of you
good luck ok..dun b too nrvous..pray hard..sleep well..!!:))

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!SCREAMING!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OW..PLEASE2..PLEASE GOD..HELP US..PLEASE LA ALLOWANCE MSK..HRP2 TOMORROW LA ELAUN MASUKK
I CANT STAND IT ANYMORE..PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!! kptm please be considerate please..we want to go shoping..we want to buy books, we want to pay a lot of things..ow duh..we jolly2 nt tym christmas..ow..i noe these are bad reasons but u'ol can see my pont there..kn..sighing2000X..
MR ELAUN MASUK LA ANDA....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!SECPAT MUNGKIN..BUKAN LAE MYB..BESOK LA KO MASUK...:((((

5more days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yeepie.....it's just 5 more days before im heading back 2 Sabah.2 celebrate christmas!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY..can't wait..mood mw pg kelas pn hilang2 suda ne..hahahah...today is the beginning of the 4rd advent..a week before Christmas..i went to the church today..and praise to the God that i'm be a ble to do my confession today..Alleluia..it is such a blessing for me..huhu...before going back, there is a lot of stuffs too be settled..ASsIGNMENTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

plus...ALLOWANCE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!please la masuk..be my guest of honor dlm account sy*quote miss syira here...sy mw shoping..wait here is the list to do

- after elaun masuk;
-shoping
>shirtS
>new jeans
>new bag
>shoes* mcm xpyh..minta sponsor FAMA..haha
>new pair of contact lens
>cut hair
>dye my hair*again
-settle of the payment
>books
>yuran*nt la..hahah
plus..enjoy2 d sabah nt.. gt plan olredy..haha
anything i miss???haha..hrp2 la i can spend mym money wisely..
before that..assignment yerh mR. cyc...jgn lupa assignment..jadi rajin sikit la ye..

apa lg mc ckp ne ah??elaun please la ba masuk..besok ah ko masuk..hahahah..dui ba...
ba yalah...assignment luk..haha

what else i can do

huh..life is hard..there is no deniable...
hopefully elaun masuk cepat2!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1hopefully by tomorrow la..
tlg KPTM..masukkn la elaun kami a.s.a.p..by tomorrow ka
amen..
huhu..hopefully before christmas break,,,xda la apa2 big test supaya i can get ready and enjoy my christmas spirit..haha..and also after the break..a week later ka bru start apa2..supaya boleh blend in..haha
can't wait to get back for xmas..hahaha
my foster bro..the oldest one..please comment me...I hope u read diz...

3rd advent

now its the 3rd advent..2 more weeks before christmas..
lot of things to do
assignments
huh..gt a lil blurred on my legal system assignment
need to find a lot of articles regarding my thesis..haha
take a short break right now from searching articles..huhu...
gt persuasive speech to do and present tomorrow
and i am damn sleepy

back to college...

2nd week at university done!!!
nay..still a long time to go..im going crazy with all the assignments...but one thing for sure...i can't waiy fir christmas!!!!!!!!!yeah...but b4 dat lotsa things to do dammit...now at CC with my friend..haha..doing a lil criminal by staying out late..ahax

this what i feel

im feeling down and ALIENATED PLUS SECLUDED

in da middle of da nite, i am clueless..looking through my FB is totally boring and lame...i dunno why, i listening to da song 'love the way you lie' over and over again..then i switch 2 the clubbin rythm which club you cant handle me..im feeling down..im clueless, im full of fonder, i keep thinking bout my brories...there is also something that bothers me..ow how i realised im not such a faithful disciples of Jesus...im been through a lot of sins that i knew those are wrong and sinful, i love you Lord Jesus..be blessed..amen...writing helps me express my self..i think i am so stupid that create my own inner drama...ow gosh...i am lonely, people might see me as a jollyful and happy person, but da reality is i am lonely, nobody wanna chats with me at facebook..nobody wanna text me, nobody wanna greets me, do I the only one yg ingat dorang or memang sy yg ego..so in this case, me da one who really search for them..ow gosh..this is______________, memang macam ne ja la hidup sy..sy yg cr org kasi gembira sma kasi rapat hubungan...dorang xkisah pn sma sy..adei...Tuhan tolong la sy..bantu la sy..so tat means, i shud open my heart for love*ow damn...entah la, maybe memang sy org yg terpinggir and type of person yg pigi cr org..ow gosh..patutla org ckp sy ne xpandai malu..klu sy ckp sy malu, dorang heran.pukima jg kn..ow! i shud stop memaki..adeiz..sampai ada org ckp sy ne minta puji ba..pnya men sedih sy, sy pnya character memang mcm 2 la ba kn..entah la..sy sorang ja la ne kn yg take care of anybody else..klu cm2 kn.bgs sy hidup sorang2..budu..boring ba dunia!!!!!!!!! Do i really need to show my effort to find them..ee..sy bosan suda mcm ne ow,,,mcm kena guna2 jax ba,,kima2,,klu mo tw la kn..chatlist sy kadang smp 60orang online..tp kesian kn..sorang pn xchat sma sy..mcm palui ja la ne sy kn..bgs sy delete FB sy teruS..tp FB ne bagus..coz i can easy cr maklumat such as classes and also CSS schedule..i2 la 2 sy blm mw delete FB sy..adez..so kesian ow kn me,.kena bt cmne,,damn2..adei xtw lg la cmna mw ckp..nama jax ada kwn..tp sy rasa sy belum jumpa my true friend/s..sy btl pray and hope yg Tuhan akan tolong sy..or memang ada suda cuma sy jax yg xtw...ow Lord,please help me..ee...RECLUSE OW SY RSA!!!!!!!!!!sy sedih ow dgn hidup sy...xguna ow sy caring sma dorang..ka sy jax yg ego..xmw sms la kunun..xmw start conversation.then terus da lil'devil inside my heart ckp...takkan mesti ko jax kn..haha..dui ba.mcm ada bad and good sides ne on my both sides..

this is I want

is this the want i've been seeking for?

i want DSLR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i love the sunset

stand alone..

well...em.hye,*no idea how to start this entry*
haha..life goes by as its shown..nothing much really this holiday..no new stuffs..boring as it is..lame as it feels, sucks as I can see..haha..
lalalal..dunno what to say..ok.. these are my words:

yesterday*..
went to KK..bought a new pair of spectacles..miahaha..smart la jg..ahax..quite ok..the went to suria...jalan2..padahal suria 2 mcm boring ne..xda pa2 pn..adess..penat jax berjalan..pas2 go 2 1B with my father long lost friend..but wait before kami smp 1b kn..dorang mw bergmbr dlu..i mean dorang mw snap pic sunset..wow..all of them ada DSLR..jealous ow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!..huhu..i want one of like that..DSLR u will be and already be in my wish list..haha..smart ow sunset d sabah kn..bukan la bru sy sedar but really smart ow..yg penting penat berjalan klmrn..wtF..haha

ow gosh..exam result will be announced soon..sy takut ow..hopefully i'll get gempak pnya rsult..amin..*pray harder cyrill!! May God bless me..huhu...

wow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

after long time i din post anything here in my blog, then tiba2..ada mood plak mw berblogging ne mlm..haha..
ok 1st..to all my followers i wolud like to apologise for doesnt has the intention 2 blogging..haha..so sorry ok..its been a long time..really very2 long time..haha..well..my life had changed a lot..yes!!A lot. no doubt about that,,
being a student..well..a university student title!!DUh*..haha
landed on da course that i never dreamed of 2 be..then fly away from east to the almost west of malaysia..to be in da middle of the chaotic life..huh!!!
i dunno how i can changed my self from a bit to a massive changed in these 5 months or more...see..during i was staying in shah alam..i never grab the chance to update my blog..on the other hand when about 8 months ago, i was thinking blogging is such an opportunity for me to express my feeling then it turned down,haha..wow!!!...dear my blog..u had missed a lot of things that i should shared with you..haha..

well the real point i am writing here is.ok blog i know u noe..yap!!!
im been depressed again...for such along time also..i nvr suffer from this kind of feeling since during the post spm hols before..but then..being such alone in this long sem break makes me, i think fall into the depression again.. such have a feeling that they dun take care of me again., they dun want to know about me.they had the bad feeling..hence, i intend to deactivate my FB..but well, this is yet not a crucial circumstance, but i already took the baby steps where i dun log in often to my FB, but just look through the notifications via my email where i still can take a glance on what happen in my FB..i dunno.u noe that mr. blog, that feeling that we've been shared through ages ago..haha..so i can conclude here..PEOPLE IN FACEBOOK, THEY REALLY LET ME DOWN, IM TIRED OF IT,.plus all the brories made me sick..ok im feeling so guilty to tell it here, but i dun care..well, i think i had spent about rm 100++ to buy them for their souveniers..which is not a cheapskate materials but things that I dun have for myself..well..is this karma?? i just hope my karma is back..no!!!!!!! These already been destined by our Lord Jesus, praise to Him,im trying very hard*ok not too hard*..to have them back especially the eldest which is____________________okay i dunno what is the right word..but..duh!!!it just a piece of shit..i cant stand it anymore..the world makes me sick...it is such a tough life for me..i cant barely stand and defeat it!!!! The circumstances that i've been through make my self creates his own drama and own stupid mens rea..ow this is totally crap..i bullshit my self..i dunno..i've been bundled it for my own to take it alone and swallow it..but thanks be to God..i can digest it very well..where i digest it to pieces and let go..so i can move forward..wow its sucah a long entry..well NVM..it is a treat for my so-not-updated-blog..haha..okay..till then..

continuing life....

well...sebenarnya saya malas mahu upd8 blog saya ne..bukan x masa..berlambak masa ne mw update tp teda mood,malas,tiada idea pa yg mo tulis plus i like to keep it myself..haha...okay..once again briefly..

Driving test
-on the 19th of april 2010..i went to re-take for my driving test..and thanks God..i passed..haha...so saya pass suda tinggal tunggu lesen..lg..on the 23rd of april went back to my driving institute to urus all dat stuufs for license's requirements..maybe diz week keluar la lesen P saya itu..haha...

Further study

- still belum ada ne offer datang..on the 23rd juga me sent my application form to Taylor's college..then..me baru tahu juga yesterday yang me dpt call for temuduga maktab perguruan which is happen on 10th may..and got essay to do..tapi belum but..look through ja soalan2 dia hari 2..haha..nt la sy buat./.boleh ba 2 kn..


KK trip(24th-25th of april 2010)


so actually benda ni memang best..tp malas mo tulis panjang2..nanti la saya bg tw in detail..klu mo tw contact me la..haha./.dui2..ahax...em..naik bas jam 8 am sama si olga in the 24th 2..smp kat kk..nico ambl..kmi pg cp..mkn dlu..sbb si nico lapar..pas2 si calen smp,pas2 tunggu si sylvia..then kmi pg men boling..haha..budu..bida sy men..lama suda tidak main kn..haha..pas2 men pool ja..kejap ja..saya la..haha..then go watch movie..kick-ass..ow..memang best tu movie..totally ah..saya sangat suka..2 thumbs up liao..haha.then jumpa pina...we all went to SR warisan..mkn2 sana..plus cerita2..smp jam 6 ka 2..pas2 said our goodbyes..then pg beach..mkn2 sana..next balik rumah si I..penat ow..tp sekali jam 3 juga kmi tidur..pnya la banyak kmi cerita..tidak tahu la..haha...pa mo jd..du..routine suda 2 untuk kami kn..haha...


25th april-

bangun jam 8..astaga..berpa jam ja tidur..breakfast..pas2 tgk tv..siap2..mandi2..kol si N suru ambl kmi..pas2 lunch..chao..off 2 cp..pg windows shopping jap..went 2 warisan..bought clothes 8 EX-boutique..huhu..a shirt only ah..sorry la..haha...then pg Big-App..mkn donut la..pa lg..blk cp..jmpa dorang2..cer2..3.30 pm..naik kereta off 2 padang merdeka..saying goodbyes..jump into bus..heading back keningau..say bye2 2 my friends and kk...huhu...datz ol..my short(really short trip) 2 keningau...


APPRECIATION :

THANK YOU 2 WAWAN'S FAMS AND HIMSELF..SI NICO SBB JD OUR TRAVEL GUIDE HAHA./ACTUALY DRIVER KMI LA..AHAX..EM..SEPA LG AH??SMA SEMUA LA..LUV2...HUHU

loooooooooooooon time again..

okay..memang lama sudah saya tidak mengemaskini blog saya ini..haha..saya sedang mencuba untuk menulis dalam Bahasa Melayu yang formal dan betul setelah sekian lama tidak membuat penulisan Bahasa Melayu yang sebetulnya seperti tempoh masa yang lama juga saya tidak mengemaskini blog saya ini..: ok..straight to the point..banyak la terjadi..malas aq mo update blog ne..huu.ok briefly..

studies' offers..

• em..matriks saya tidak dapt..bukn rezeki kot.
• last saturday..which is 10th of april..went to uitm sabah..got temuduga for asasi TESL..went well..hopefully..thanks be to God..finger crossed..spya dpt..amin..
• maktab perguruan??xtw lg masih

• so far..itu ja yg aq ble update psl future study aq..like mcm sedih la jg kn..matriks tidak dapat..so biarla.

driving stuffs

• actually kan..12th april tu kn..aq JPJ test swa ba..tp xdpt..gagal aq..d bukit 2 suda aq gagal..dui..pa mo jadi..so..19th april ne aq re-take..hopefully saya dapat la..cross finger*..amen..xsanggup lg menanggung kegagalan..

hazel,amoi and sylvia pay a visit 2 keningau
- cerita dia mcm ne..8th april dorang 3 ne pg keningau la..ikut si olga..then jumpa besok nya..9th april..jln2..kunun ba..sekejap ja ne..mkn2 sma dorang d honey sweet cafe..sekejap ja jmpa dorang..mo pg kk kn 2 petang..ada interview ne..huhu..so tats ol..

norsyazwani's bufday..
- haha..ini lawak..yg 2 ari kn..bila 2 ah..ow ya..13th april..bufday si wanie ba..then kmi ada plan la knn mo pg mkn ne..haha..sekali terus pop up 1 plan..pg mkn rojak d warung yg area sini2 ja ba 2..haha..then jam 3 la..brkoling la knn ne kmi..haha..ok2..set..terus me sedia la..jalan kaki wha..xjg jauh la..sekali smp jalan besar..hujan turun..mendung suda ba 2 tym 2..haha..tp xlebat..me kol wanie..dia ckp..dia tunggu dpn golf club suda..jalan ja la sy..haha..hujan la..drizzle only ba tat..tp angin kuat..smp la kmi..haha..mkn rojak..sedap wha..sanggup ne kmi brjln semata2 mw mkn rojak ja.n sambut bufday dia..walaupn xjg la sebnarnya celbrtaion..hha..smart2 ow..tym 2 napa la me xbw kereta..even fail kn..ble suda ba 2..mst confident ma..haha..huhu..

so apa lagi sy mo ckp ne..anything i miss out to be blogged??haha...can't think of it ow..f me ingat nt me send dlm next blog la ya..haha..if wanna check pics on my interview and wanie's bufday..feel free 2 check my facebook..well,im still not used to know how to put a link in my blog..nt aq bljr..so bru senang kn 2 all reades..for you convenience..em..mlas mo upload photos..so for anyone yg tw FB aq..chck2 la pics aq sana..daa..bye..huhu

goes on..dilemma..

as usual today..no extraordinary..well..today is my last hour of driving lesson..haha..em..btw..td kn time tunggu my tutor 2 pick me up kn..im sittin down 2 satu bench diz..terus..ada la 2 mamas ne wif their kids sittin next to me..they are talkin..i had no idea wut 2 they talkin ..haha..then..got diz 1 of the mums is holding a cup of water..ala..cmna arg..yang drinking water but bukan dlm bottle but dlm satu tmpt yg mcm cup 2..then a sheet of plastic is covered its upper side..got it??huhu.then ba..she was holding that after her daughter is no longer want that..then she threw it away straight to da drain..but..did u noe..the dustbin is provided and the dustbin is not far..less than 30seconds 2 go and return..dui ba..xda kesedaran btl ba..pa la mo jd..plus they are not local..so ble tw la kn..em..bahasa dorang 2 pn entah bahasa pa..astga..dui as a sabahan..terasa la ba kn..buang smpah gitu ja..btl la ba..2 dustbin bkn nya jauh pn..huh./.wat to do..ok next..haha..went to litar..bljr bukit..haha..lawak..2 kali me turun blk..x ckp kuat mo naik..haha..but ok la jg..ahax..then gone home..ahax..lalala..notink to do..diz nite is fun..had chit-chatted a lot of frenx..huhu..best la jg..ym-ing with miss sukma..we are talkin no crap..we talkin some adult stuffs..matured huh??hha..plus..me wanna cut hair ba ne..long ody..xtahan suda..rimas..me dun prefer long hair as me ssh mo kc style.haha..dui..ahax..entah la..such in dilemma..haha..ok..la..till then..

raining,,, a Bless from God

it is raining here...

huhu..nice..it is raining right now..in keningau..like it gonna be the whole afternoon the rain is pouring,,thanks be to God.that He grant us with this blessed..after a long time the rain doesn't comes...huhu..so nice..i had my nap tadi..haha..sejuk2 best2..klu d dorm ne..dui..confirm prep petang x aq pg..haha...then td my mum juz went home from her meeting..she bought kuih-muih..yai..sedap..ahax..got karipap..i2 ja aq nmpk..ptg2 ne..sejuk2 lae..mkn2 kuih..minum hot choc..or hot milo..sedapp...enjoy..hahaha..ptg2 klu hujan time d mrsm..haha..prep petang xpg..klu pg pn..bkn study,,haha..men2..enjoyin the rain..klu rmi org turum riadah..pg la jg..bez jg ow..riadah tym2 hujan..dui..lama suda x pg riadah..ahax..plus..klu dtg gila..lepas lunch ja..jam 2 g2..hujan2 suda..tidur the whole afternoon smp jam 6 pn blh..haha..duh???astaga...haha,,bez ow...ahax..huhu,..menyingkap semula cerita2 lama d mrsm..haha..so many great things happen there..huh??u juz miss it..ahax...

new post..

wow..long time din post anything..haha..so many things happen..continue my driving lesson..draws 2 end..huhu..went back to my school..mrsm kota kinabalu..visited a lot of frenz and teachers...accompany my friend irneza zaihan..haha..hv fun that time..totally have fun ow..ahax..nt next post me cer ok..haha..wut to say again..today went to drive again..4pm suda..ptg suda..my tutor pn looks exhausted..then me terus fikir..he penat suda..msT dia bad mood 2..em..btl ne..petang suda ba..me da last person he taught..you can noe la kn..petang ba 2 suda..haha..learned parking today..ahax..ok la..sama buat latihan 3 penjuru..can do lae..haha..wow..ahax..miss my friends and bros..huhu

long time suda ne..

wow..long time suda ne sy xbloggin..haha..many things happen(banyak meh??)
haha..diz school break is sucks..haha..mcm la sy ne masih in school life..cuti ja sy 3 bulan suda..haha..i said it so coz didn't went anywer diz hols..quite boring la..buka skul bru sy jln..haha...btw..my driving license is still x yet done..sucks ow..lama suda ne..4bulan suda..lama gila ow..bukan la apa kn sy mo ckp..kwn2 sy yg len dpt suda...yg sma2 bengkel pn ada suda lesen..baru la ne..aiya..mcm terlampau ramai ba org my tutor pegang..shutZ..mw jg sy ckp..but u noe la kn cmna jg..got segan la ba jg kn..dui~~~~..haha..many times i felt down because of the same reason..never changed-huh..upset o me diz..lalala..life is so beautiful..many things in our life are so wonderful to be explored and enjoyed..huhu..well..best of luck 2 me so that i can enrol in the best university and pursue my dream and ambition..amen...

journey of me..

long time x blogging...many things happen surrounding me...from spm to everyday life..
my spm result was announced..em..quite ok la...dun want to talk bout dat..haha....it is school mid sem break rite now..for those r still in school la...em..wut to say...haha..quite banyak berjalan jg la kali ne..haha...fun jg la..then i had dreamed sumthing dat is really unexpected..haha....school's out..then banyak la 2 MORON2 yg annoying on9..benci saya...haha...damn...nt la me talk lg ah..next posy\t...

freaking out.terrifying

omg..tomoroow will be 11th march ody..so scared...bloggin at this time surely relieve a bit my tension...i am totally scared la..to be honest..spm!!!!!!many people said SPM is most important as it will decide you which path are you heading to...ow...argh...stress...the ecpectations from my family is too high..i can feel it...studying in boarding school will give you a higher expecattaions from your surrounding..i do not say that studying in regular schools are not..but from my point of view as a student.i am studying in boarding school..so i can feel their hopes towrds me are really high..and they expect me to be the best and get a flying colours result...huh!i scared that i can't fulfill the expectations..even the teachers are giving their hopes to us..even the society..you do not want to be insulted by society.."h was studied in boarding school..but result..average ja".ooow i dun want to be like that..dammit..why now i realised all of these stuffz...ow..forgot it..there is no time to regret..the result will be announced in less than 12 hours..all the best for me..hope God will grant me peace and success..so that i can further my study and be an excellent person and contributes to my family.religion and nation..amen...welll.lots of luck..amen..

freaking out.terrifying

SPM mo kuar suda...
11th march 2010..
bersamaan hari khamis..
mati la ne..
i'm scared ow..
cmna la my result tu nt ah...
hrp2 bgs la..
amen..
probz lg skrg..
aq xtw mo pg mna pasni...

watchin tv??

i had watched a brand new show juz now..it was called...house of jazmin...it is a reality tv show about a talented young designer who wanna be a fabulous and success designer..well indeed the designs of her clothing line is so fresh and superb..and it is inspires me to be a succeed person just like her...

so this is jazmin..

jazmin and her family plus her bff

jazmin again...

so..here is jazmin with her tv show..

moving on..

nothing much happen lately...huhu....normal...today went to driving lesson again..better la..much better than the previous one..ahax....ok suda la me handle..mo practice lg...ahax..bought ice cream shake today...choc marh..sedap..cravin' 4 it..haha..tiba2 pula..lately the weather is too hot...can't stand it..baru dua hari jalan pn can cpot the difference on my skin..haha...so like wut care bout skin..haha..yup!really wanna grab sunblock..prevent the uv ray to penetrate more and protect me from harmful rays..well you know..pollution is so surround us right now..haha..woah..wut else wanna talk...life is so meaningful..lala...dup dap dup dap....really scared..you know why jg kn..hope all the best for me..amen..

exhausted...

huh...woke up at 8 am..but then me turun bwh..sambung tidur d couch...haha..then 8.40am..me woke up..doing a lil'bit haus chores(as usual)...on9 then..called ma mum see if she can pick me up to pekan...nope..her car in workshop...then..took my shower..clothes-on...go to the main road..to board bus...huh!!!!!!panas...can't stand it...arrived at kedai..almost 11 am...waitin 4 like 15mins...huhu..my tutor picked me up..ow..today lesson was so embarassed...got a couple of times mati enjin at round about..huhu..practice makes perfect..then done driving lesson...texted olga if she olredy had her luch or not..then i said i wanna treat her..haha..to fulfill my janji with her la..then went to honey sweet chicken rice..both of us ordered spagheti bolognaise...ate..chit-chateed with her..she went back to work..meet the barber to cut my hair..then done..almost 2pm ody...called my friend jourdan if she arrived ody or not...walked to SFX..meet him n his choral speaking team..taught them a bit...done around 4.30pm++..then we went to night market..bought a drink...huhu..said our goodbyes..met up with mrsm practical counsellor last year...huhu...jump on a bus...head home..tired liao..so tired..fuckin tired..nap a while..took my shower..on9..think like wanna take early n good sleep..chao..

so what??you moron..

so what la kalu dorang x contact ko suda..dui..terang2 ne ba kn cyrill ko appear on9 sma dorang..bukannya dorang send ko apa2 pn..jd kenapala...sial la mo sy yg terhegeh2 pg mnta puji.gete2 pg tnya doranh khabar..fuck la..shit la..em..so what la klu sy jd forgotten pn sma dorang..bukan dorang ja hidup di dunia n..lala...em..ble hidup jg tanpa dorang..biar la ba..true friends never die kn..but apa la 2 meaning 2 sma dorang..mcm palui ja..haha...huhu...sy xkisah pn..actually memang i feel sad jg la...we were friends before..em..malas nya sy mo ckp ne..memang damnly sad la ba diz...i realy love them as my friends..but seems everyone have their own life suda..tapi saya ja still relying da old life..duh???napa jg im been so dumb ah..trip mo jd loyal person kunun...dui...damnz....yai..malas la ne...benci sy..xda mood suda..nt ja la..

damn+happy+sad+down=taste of life...

huhu..woke up 3 times diz morning before da rwal life began..7.20,8.30,9.25..haha...dunno y...ahax...sleepy kot...notink much to do diz day..washed da dishes...cleanin a bit of the house...continue downloading songs...fb-ing..gamin sorority life..leveled up again lvl 101 ody...haha...then my tutor called..3pm=lesson begin..huhu...surfin internet searchin for menu-dui..wannabe chef suda o me..ahax...1st mo mask ayam masak merah..but sudah masak ari 2..then mo masak ayam masak kicap la plak..but boring sudah..then finally masak ayam masak madu..huhu..not bad ow..taste so nice..but madu dia x berapa terasa...da curry powder is so strong kot.haha..but still nice..from my point of view la..haha..watching tv..then waiting for 2.30 pm to get ready..sleepy plak..huhu..then...follow my dad pg spot i dealed wif my tutor...get into the car...he drived a bit then me took over..haha...this time it is smoother..haha...ok jg la..xjg brpa teruk..but the best part is..my tutor tuning on music..then at dat time bad romance song by lady gaga was played..haha..while drivin at the same time also..me singing that song..haha...relax wa diz time...chill la a bit..huhu..then i drivved until reached my house..saying goodbye..that's all..huhu...watchin tv...bathing my youngest bro....so notty la him ..haha..then fellin a bit down when remember those person...plus sleepy..get to my room..playin some really slow song..like..promise in the dark by keri hillsong...candle-hey monday..wut else arh??em...forgot already..huhu..then me fall asleep..woke up..like wanna said double f***..watever..went down..ate watermelon...watched tv..on9..em..i don't feel like wat to talk about the sad part..lazy to be...chao...


p/s: i really wanna sayin those bad words rite now..so geram......

-NIL-

WELL...nothing to be expected when they coming back...em..juz still wondering are they still remembering me??still they consider me as their friend or used to be their friend in the past..em..watevs..malas nak kisah..but i am feeling sad about that though...really sad....

-lOST-

50th post...

wow...it is da 50th post i had posted to my blog since i had created my blog last year(exact date lupa la)..huhu..tonite i am feeling down..so down..i dunno y..i dun see da real reason to be down tonite...i am feeling gloom rite now..huh...fonder??????i think so..that is the only reason that will makes my self turn down...i totally miss them...huh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!let bygone be bygone..stop it..cut it off...

movies i wanted so bad...

there is a lot of movies that hits the cinema right now..ow gosh..i wanna watch them all badly...why here xda cinema ye...ow dammit..gonna miss a lot of movies la ne...damn...btw..here are some of the movies that i wanna watch badly...

it was different...

nothing much changed bout ma life...seriously..i am now fuckin scared ody coz SPM result will announce soon..ow..gosh...so damn scared..hopefully that i will get a flying colours result...amen...em..lately..wut changed ah??ow ya..i got a text from my drivin tutor..he said that my L is available already..went 2 da drivin institute on thursday..bought da 8 hours lesson coupon..still not yet inform my tutor...l8r will inform him..huhu..me like no mood ody coz da progress of gettin a drivin license was so slow ow..really...damn slow...waitin 4 da L to come out was so pain...it took about 3 weeks 2 be ready..wut da heck??well...juz forget it...really..i realised that i keep thinkin bout my sux life..huhu..and that strange feelin about thinkin my past in mrsm...thinking what i did wrong in my past..what i had been sinned into..what da expriences that so valuable..that taught me to be real human being...huh!!!!!!!!!if the time machine is so invented...i probably the 1st one grab it and take that opportunity 2 do the right things in the past...but time cannot be set back to the past..God created time is so priceless..so that human can be more aware,thinking what to do to appreciate time..think a million of times so we do not do the wrong decision that bring us to other consequences that we never expect it to be....huh...life is not so simple as quoted by anybody else.....we cannot be so perfect...

egoistic??>

we were used to be closed la..in da past..tym cuti..textin2 wif her..ym-ing wif her..at mktb pn kmi slalu jmpa..crta2...went 2 bazar 2getha..then got 1 point..me n her like lost connection..we dun used 2 textin each otha'..no more ym-ing..plus stuffz we had done before..b4 she goin back 2 mrsm in january..we stil got textin l..but like 1 or 2 texts then hang..juz like that..then me got text ma dude=junior kat mrsm 2..talkin bout stories happen in mrsm especially bout our closed frenz..then he told me that she got new bf suda.as she n her previous bf suda broke up.em..happy la jg for her...she gt text me jg yg her currently bf 2 mmg ada bw dy couple dulu but she reject..dunno y..then suddenly me knew tat she in a relationship ody..so since then..no..not yet..she got text me jg la..but that is why diz title name egoistic...me dun reply her text..i ody post bout tat story in ma previous post..huhu..then since then..me n her really lost connections..me gt jg texts her wishin her gong xi fa chai..but..x delivered..myB she changed her mobile number ody..em..me so sad la jg..coz dulu both rapat kn..spendin each otha'..emm...told her a lot of stories..then now..entahla..clueless ody me diz..me rindu her la jg..then got saw her latest pix..em..tba2 me rasa so bersalah x layan dy dulu..em..wut else can i say..miss her...

CNY..1st day..

huhu..14th february 2010...it is sunday..it is chinese new year..it is valentine day..wallup..so many things happen today..but then..i dun celebratin valentine...even..i dun text or wish anyone with valentine wishes..juz like usual..valentine was no-no 4 me coz em..xfeelink la 2 celbrate that..who cares..okay..strght 2 CNY..woke up at 8.00am++ suda la..me kena suruh my uncle cookin fried rice..daa..xbrpa sedap me msk ne kali..haha..x so biasa cookin in large quantity..haha..then at 11 am..go mandi..haha..aiyo so hot la kat kuala penyu ne..haha..havin our lunch,..sedap...my uncle yg chef 2 msk..then ma sis called..haha...homesick..she is crying..ahax..xdpt blk kn..huhu...then watchin with ma cuzzies..lot of movies lorh diz CNY..haha..then at 3pm..ma mum asked us to get ready..lalala..wanna go visting ma other cousin..duh...so hot ow...arrived at 1st house,.ahax...ma mum chit chatted wif dat aunt.,,dunno la wut da name..got twin der..so cute..their cheeks were so chubby liao..aiyo..why dun took pix ow..then next haus...juz like 3 mins only der..so many people..then go 2 ma auntie haus lg..sittin..here me got ma 2nd hong pau ody..next haus..my late grandma pnya adik..haha..even they oso x celebratin CNY juz like us..but diz is da time 2 meet each otha kn..then next haus..diz is 4th haus ody..feelin exhausted ody..so tired ody liao..this tym me follow ma dad pnya krta..b4 diz followed ma uncle pnya car,,huhu,,,then go 2 ma aunt pnya rumah..ahax..shade ody la da cuaca...story2 der wif both of uncle and auntie..then go to ma late grandpa's bro..waiting..got hong pau..balik rumah..brpa ody haus 2 in 1 petang only..haha..so full plus tired ow..then we ol go mandi..makan lg..then my uncle from kk come ma mum's younger bro came..huhu..that haus became more merrier plus chaotic..huhu..imagine la..there is a bunch of kids under 8 years old..and a few of us aged at da range 12-18..me da oldest..haha..as da otha cousin x goin home diz tym..ahax..then ma auntie karen gave us hong pau..(luv ya aunt)..haha..then we watched muVs..huhu,..so pening ma head urus da sleeping place 4 ol of us,,huhu..slept at 1 am ka 2..2 muvS back 2 back..a..penat liao..ma hong pao around 50-60 la in 1st day..huhu..1st day end...

it was dat feeling again..

stumbled upon a pix.make ma heart grows fonder.but on da other hand.it was fuckin bad.i was stranded in da middle of fonderness since da day it was gone.

we said our goodbyes and
separate
ways

that was the phrase that makes ma self goes crazy...WTH????

chinese new year liao...the year of the tiger...

well..now it is already 3rd day of CNY..huhu..went back 2 keningau diz morning...slightly sad leavin all ma cousins in the kg..huhu..xpa la..next time we'll meet again..huhu..okay now lets me talk bout my CNY 4 diz year..haha..we went back 2 kg on Saturday after lunch..around 2.00++pm like that la..ahax..it is so hot..daa..watevs..4get bout da weather..then..it is smooth journey..thanx 2 da God dat grant us a safe journey..arrived at kg around 4pm..nearly 5 pm ody..at dat tym..my uncle which is my mum elder bro uncle peter..was juz arrived wif his fam..my cousin la 2...my mum's younger bro..uncle pilyus had arrived earlier than us..ahx..packed ol of our stuffs..well you know..during cny..there is must be a lot of foods..walla..as me enter da kitchen..fods..n more foods..n a lot of beverages..half of da kitchen..no...1/3 of da kitchen was surrounded by foods..as our kitchen der is so big..lalaa..huhu..unpack ol of da stuffz//then..went to da livin' room..meet wif ma cuz..steve..had a little chit chat..then..my uncle peter brought me 2 da shops..buy some stuffs..as i'm wAitin 4 my uncle..then i saw..my cousin..sis shareen wif her dad..my uncle la..enterin da shop..then i try 2 call my cousin whch is her bro..matthew...wanna know wer is he at dat tym..but..cannot contct him..so me spinning ma head around to find him...haha,,he was in the petrol station..haha..i wave 2 him hopefully he realised i was there..its worked...then he called me..asked m when i arrived..then i told my uncle..that uncle meliko was in dat shop..we waitin 4 a couple of mins..huhu...then..they talked 4 a minutes or two...while me...chit chatted with sis shareen..ahax..then..went back 2 home..watchin a bit...then...went 2 shower...aftr that,my uncle said...go 2 my cousin haus...duh????wth...time shows like 9.00pm ody ka 2..then we juz go la my uncle said..as it is da CNY eve..haha,,,lala..then go la...arrvd there...T..DOOR SHUt HAHA...my uncle there ody asleep..drunk ody..ahax..went baxk la..watchin muV wif cousins..talk bout our life..then..we slept la..this wut happen during da CNY eve..

glance of cny

bro,cousin and I at our uncle's haus






1st angpau i guess...




da firecracker...



still..during da CNY eve



3 minutes plus ow da duration..

CHINESE NEW YEAR..

CHINESE NEW YEAR..

not beeen bloggin 4 a couple of days..went back 2 my kampung at kuala penyu 2 celebrate chinese new year as my mother side inherits chinese blood so as the tradition..we will celebrate it..even there is no longer the praying session according 2 buddhism in my late grandma haus as ol of them already been converted from buddha 2 christian...if im not mistaken..the last tym the custom praying held in ma haus was back in 2003..i think la..even there is no longer that praying stuffz in ma haus ..we still head back 2 kg every year 2 celebrate chinese new year as my otha' cousin still celebratin thiz...even da siblings of my late grandma n late grandpa still doing da customs...rite..gonna tell you all more bout diz CNY soon in da next blog..so tired liao..juz arrived from ma kg diz noon..so fuckin tired..huhu..but still it was nice and great CNy..huhu

wut can i say..

anne yg minta upload..haha