Face the Music

life is so unfair!!!

fairness and justice

working hard to achieve these 2

and i speak up for my self!!!

why i cant have my on justice

be fair on me as well

you might say i am selfish!!

but hey...so you think you are consider enough to others!!

don't you ever wanted yourselves to have the special treat and look!!!

and i am facing this!!

i wonder hows on earth myself was built to face this

stronger and stronger!!!!

bodoh!!!!l

okay fine...

sejak aq dr form 4 la kn..em tmbh2 la sikit..hujung2 tahun da kn..aq mcm bnyk fikir benda..

*ok fine actually aq xtw the real time is..mcm rasanya form 4 kot..huhu

bg aq kn...LIFE means a lot of things..LIFE is subjective..susah mw describe life kita...

for example..diri sy..sy pn xtw i lead what kind of life...MANY SCHOLARS quotes life is HARD, life is sacrifice, life is*many things lg la!!! but for me..in my personal view..we have just one life..hidup ne satu kali jax..kadang2 sy rasa kecew dengan diri sy..sebab sy rasa sy telah banyak mensia2kn hidup sy for the past 19years.. banyak benda want to be achieved..but we cannot aim high and tackle all of them in one time..apa lg sy mw ckp ah...pengalaman sy la..xbanyak mana pn pengalaman sy...sy nmpk la several things yg sy blh fikir sendiri..but i admired one of my friends..his life experienced is so many where he can sees people well..nmpk kita jax..blh tw suda apa..but every person had their own gift from God..thanks be to God..apa yg sy mw ckp..appreciate life..live your life tp ingat..God is there..mcm mna pn we lead our life..we still live under the eyes of our Creator..life is abstract...so be a good person..and enjoy life

im feeling down and ALIENATED PLUS SECLUDED

in da middle of da nite, i am clueless..looking through my FB is totally boring and lame...i dunno why, i listening to da song 'love the way you lie' over and over again..then i switch 2 the clubbin rythm which club you cant handle me..im feeling down..im clueless, im full of fonder, i keep thinking bout my brories...there is also something that bothers me..ow how i realised im not such a faithful disciples of Jesus...im been through a lot of sins that i knew those are wrong and sinful, i love you Lord Jesus..be blessed..amen...writing helps me express my self..i think i am so stupid that create my own inner drama...ow gosh...i am lonely, people might see me as a jollyful and happy person, but da reality is i am lonely, nobody wanna chats with me at facebook..nobody wanna text me, nobody wanna greets me, do I the only one yg ingat dorang or memang sy yg ego..so in this case, me da one who really search for them..ow gosh..this is______________, memang macam ne ja la hidup sy..sy yg cr org kasi gembira sma kasi rapat hubungan...dorang xkisah pn sma sy..adei...Tuhan tolong la sy..bantu la sy..so tat means, i shud open my heart for love*ow damn...entah la, maybe memang sy org yg terpinggir and type of person yg pigi cr org..ow gosh..patutla org ckp sy ne xpandai malu..klu sy ckp sy malu, dorang heran.pukima jg kn..ow! i shud stop memaki..adeiz..sampai ada org ckp sy ne minta puji ba..pnya men sedih sy, sy pnya character memang mcm 2 la ba kn..entah la..sy sorang ja la ne kn yg take care of anybody else..klu cm2 kn.bgs sy hidup sorang2..budu..boring ba dunia!!!!!!!!! Do i really need to show my effort to find them..ee..sy bosan suda mcm ne ow,,,mcm kena guna2 jax ba,,kima2,,klu mo tw la kn..chatlist sy kadang smp 60orang online..tp kesian kn..sorang pn xchat sma sy..mcm palui ja la ne sy kn..bgs sy delete FB sy teruS..tp FB ne bagus..coz i can easy cr maklumat such as classes and also CSS schedule..i2 la 2 sy blm mw delete FB sy..adez..so kesian ow kn me,.kena bt cmne,,damn2..adei xtw lg la cmna mw ckp..nama jax ada kwn..tp sy rasa sy belum jumpa my true friend/s..sy btl pray and hope yg Tuhan akan tolong sy..or memang ada suda cuma sy jax yg xtw...ow Lord,please help me..ee...RECLUSE OW SY RSA!!!!!!!!!!sy sedih ow dgn hidup sy...xguna ow sy caring sma dorang..ka sy jax yg ego..xmw sms la kunun..xmw start conversation.then terus da lil'devil inside my heart ckp...takkan mesti ko jax kn..haha..dui ba.mcm ada bad and good sides ne on my both sides..

goes on..dilemma..

as usual today..no extraordinary..well..today is my last hour of driving lesson..haha..em..btw..td kn time tunggu my tutor 2 pick me up kn..im sittin down 2 satu bench diz..terus..ada la 2 mamas ne wif their kids sittin next to me..they are talkin..i had no idea wut 2 they talkin ..haha..then..got diz 1 of the mums is holding a cup of water..ala..cmna arg..yang drinking water but bukan dlm bottle but dlm satu tmpt yg mcm cup 2..then a sheet of plastic is covered its upper side..got it??huhu.then ba..she was holding that after her daughter is no longer want that..then she threw it away straight to da drain..but..did u noe..the dustbin is provided and the dustbin is not far..less than 30seconds 2 go and return..dui ba..xda kesedaran btl ba..pa la mo jd..plus they are not local..so ble tw la kn..em..bahasa dorang 2 pn entah bahasa pa..astga..dui as a sabahan..terasa la ba kn..buang smpah gitu ja..btl la ba..2 dustbin bkn nya jauh pn..huh./.wat to do..ok next..haha..went to litar..bljr bukit..haha..lawak..2 kali me turun blk..x ckp kuat mo naik..haha..but ok la jg..ahax..then gone home..ahax..lalala..notink to do..diz nite is fun..had chit-chatted a lot of frenx..huhu..best la jg..ym-ing with miss sukma..we are talkin no crap..we talkin some adult stuffs..matured huh??hha..plus..me wanna cut hair ba ne..long ody..xtahan suda..rimas..me dun prefer long hair as me ssh mo kc style.haha..dui..ahax..entah la..such in dilemma..haha..ok..la..till then..