so what??you moron..

so what la kalu dorang x contact ko suda..dui..terang2 ne ba kn cyrill ko appear on9 sma dorang..bukannya dorang send ko apa2 pn..jd kenapala...sial la mo sy yg terhegeh2 pg mnta puji.gete2 pg tnya doranh khabar..fuck la..shit la..em..so what la klu sy jd forgotten pn sma dorang..bukan dorang ja hidup di dunia n..lala...em..ble hidup jg tanpa dorang..biar la ba..true friends never die kn..but apa la 2 meaning 2 sma dorang..mcm palui ja..haha...huhu...sy xkisah pn..actually memang i feel sad jg la...we were friends before..em..malas nya sy mo ckp ne..memang damnly sad la ba diz...i realy love them as my friends..but seems everyone have their own life suda..tapi saya ja still relying da old life..duh???napa jg im been so dumb ah..trip mo jd loyal person kunun...dui...damnz....yai..malas la ne...benci sy..xda mood suda..nt ja la..

damn+happy+sad+down=taste of life...

huhu..woke up 3 times diz morning before da rwal life began..7.20,8.30,9.25..haha...dunno y...ahax...sleepy kot...notink much to do diz day..washed da dishes...cleanin a bit of the house...continue downloading songs...fb-ing..gamin sorority life..leveled up again lvl 101 ody...haha...then my tutor called..3pm=lesson begin..huhu...surfin internet searchin for menu-dui..wannabe chef suda o me..ahax...1st mo mask ayam masak merah..but sudah masak ari 2..then mo masak ayam masak kicap la plak..but boring sudah..then finally masak ayam masak madu..huhu..not bad ow..taste so nice..but madu dia x berapa terasa...da curry powder is so strong kot.haha..but still nice..from my point of view la..haha..watching tv..then waiting for 2.30 pm to get ready..sleepy plak..huhu..then...follow my dad pg spot i dealed wif my tutor...get into the car...he drived a bit then me took over..haha...this time it is smoother..haha...ok jg la..xjg brpa teruk..but the best part is..my tutor tuning on music..then at dat time bad romance song by lady gaga was played..haha..while drivin at the same time also..me singing that song..haha...relax wa diz time...chill la a bit..huhu..then i drivved until reached my house..saying goodbye..that's all..huhu...watchin tv...bathing my youngest bro....so notty la him ..haha..then fellin a bit down when remember those person...plus sleepy..get to my room..playin some really slow song..like..promise in the dark by keri hillsong...candle-hey monday..wut else arh??em...forgot already..huhu..then me fall asleep..woke up..like wanna said double f***..watever..went down..ate watermelon...watched tv..on9..em..i don't feel like wat to talk about the sad part..lazy to be...chao...


p/s: i really wanna sayin those bad words rite now..so geram......

-NIL-

WELL...nothing to be expected when they coming back...em..juz still wondering are they still remembering me??still they consider me as their friend or used to be their friend in the past..em..watevs..malas nak kisah..but i am feeling sad about that though...really sad....

-lOST-

50th post...

wow...it is da 50th post i had posted to my blog since i had created my blog last year(exact date lupa la)..huhu..tonite i am feeling down..so down..i dunno y..i dun see da real reason to be down tonite...i am feeling gloom rite now..huh...fonder??????i think so..that is the only reason that will makes my self turn down...i totally miss them...huh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!let bygone be bygone..stop it..cut it off...

movies i wanted so bad...

there is a lot of movies that hits the cinema right now..ow gosh..i wanna watch them all badly...why here xda cinema ye...ow dammit..gonna miss a lot of movies la ne...damn...btw..here are some of the movies that i wanna watch badly...

it was different...

nothing much changed bout ma life...seriously..i am now fuckin scared ody coz SPM result will announce soon..ow..gosh...so damn scared..hopefully that i will get a flying colours result...amen...em..lately..wut changed ah??ow ya..i got a text from my drivin tutor..he said that my L is available already..went 2 da drivin institute on thursday..bought da 8 hours lesson coupon..still not yet inform my tutor...l8r will inform him..huhu..me like no mood ody coz da progress of gettin a drivin license was so slow ow..really...damn slow...waitin 4 da L to come out was so pain...it took about 3 weeks 2 be ready..wut da heck??well...juz forget it...really..i realised that i keep thinkin bout my sux life..huhu..and that strange feelin about thinkin my past in mrsm...thinking what i did wrong in my past..what i had been sinned into..what da expriences that so valuable..that taught me to be real human being...huh!!!!!!!!!if the time machine is so invented...i probably the 1st one grab it and take that opportunity 2 do the right things in the past...but time cannot be set back to the past..God created time is so priceless..so that human can be more aware,thinking what to do to appreciate time..think a million of times so we do not do the wrong decision that bring us to other consequences that we never expect it to be....huh...life is not so simple as quoted by anybody else.....we cannot be so perfect...

egoistic??>

we were used to be closed la..in da past..tym cuti..textin2 wif her..ym-ing wif her..at mktb pn kmi slalu jmpa..crta2...went 2 bazar 2getha..then got 1 point..me n her like lost connection..we dun used 2 textin each otha'..no more ym-ing..plus stuffz we had done before..b4 she goin back 2 mrsm in january..we stil got textin l..but like 1 or 2 texts then hang..juz like that..then me got text ma dude=junior kat mrsm 2..talkin bout stories happen in mrsm especially bout our closed frenz..then he told me that she got new bf suda.as she n her previous bf suda broke up.em..happy la jg for her...she gt text me jg yg her currently bf 2 mmg ada bw dy couple dulu but she reject..dunno y..then suddenly me knew tat she in a relationship ody..so since then..no..not yet..she got text me jg la..but that is why diz title name egoistic...me dun reply her text..i ody post bout tat story in ma previous post..huhu..then since then..me n her really lost connections..me gt jg texts her wishin her gong xi fa chai..but..x delivered..myB she changed her mobile number ody..em..me so sad la jg..coz dulu both rapat kn..spendin each otha'..emm...told her a lot of stories..then now..entahla..clueless ody me diz..me rindu her la jg..then got saw her latest pix..em..tba2 me rasa so bersalah x layan dy dulu..em..wut else can i say..miss her...

CNY..1st day..

huhu..14th february 2010...it is sunday..it is chinese new year..it is valentine day..wallup..so many things happen today..but then..i dun celebratin valentine...even..i dun text or wish anyone with valentine wishes..juz like usual..valentine was no-no 4 me coz em..xfeelink la 2 celbrate that..who cares..okay..strght 2 CNY..woke up at 8.00am++ suda la..me kena suruh my uncle cookin fried rice..daa..xbrpa sedap me msk ne kali..haha..x so biasa cookin in large quantity..haha..then at 11 am..go mandi..haha..aiyo so hot la kat kuala penyu ne..haha..havin our lunch,..sedap...my uncle yg chef 2 msk..then ma sis called..haha...homesick..she is crying..ahax..xdpt blk kn..huhu...then watchin with ma cuzzies..lot of movies lorh diz CNY..haha..then at 3pm..ma mum asked us to get ready..lalala..wanna go visting ma other cousin..duh...so hot ow...arrived at 1st house,.ahax...ma mum chit chatted wif dat aunt.,,dunno la wut da name..got twin der..so cute..their cheeks were so chubby liao..aiyo..why dun took pix ow..then next haus...juz like 3 mins only der..so many people..then go 2 ma auntie haus lg..sittin..here me got ma 2nd hong pau ody..next haus..my late grandma pnya adik..haha..even they oso x celebratin CNY juz like us..but diz is da time 2 meet each otha kn..then next haus..diz is 4th haus ody..feelin exhausted ody..so tired ody liao..this tym me follow ma dad pnya krta..b4 diz followed ma uncle pnya car,,huhu,,,then go 2 ma aunt pnya rumah..ahax..shade ody la da cuaca...story2 der wif both of uncle and auntie..then go to ma late grandpa's bro..waiting..got hong pau..balik rumah..brpa ody haus 2 in 1 petang only..haha..so full plus tired ow..then we ol go mandi..makan lg..then my uncle from kk come ma mum's younger bro came..huhu..that haus became more merrier plus chaotic..huhu..imagine la..there is a bunch of kids under 8 years old..and a few of us aged at da range 12-18..me da oldest..haha..as da otha cousin x goin home diz tym..ahax..then ma auntie karen gave us hong pau..(luv ya aunt)..haha..then we watched muVs..huhu,..so pening ma head urus da sleeping place 4 ol of us,,huhu..slept at 1 am ka 2..2 muvS back 2 back..a..penat liao..ma hong pao around 50-60 la in 1st day..huhu..1st day end...

it was dat feeling again..

stumbled upon a pix.make ma heart grows fonder.but on da other hand.it was fuckin bad.i was stranded in da middle of fonderness since da day it was gone.

we said our goodbyes and
separate
ways

that was the phrase that makes ma self goes crazy...WTH????

chinese new year liao...the year of the tiger...

well..now it is already 3rd day of CNY..huhu..went back 2 keningau diz morning...slightly sad leavin all ma cousins in the kg..huhu..xpa la..next time we'll meet again..huhu..okay now lets me talk bout my CNY 4 diz year..haha..we went back 2 kg on Saturday after lunch..around 2.00++pm like that la..ahax..it is so hot..daa..watevs..4get bout da weather..then..it is smooth journey..thanx 2 da God dat grant us a safe journey..arrived at kg around 4pm..nearly 5 pm ody..at dat tym..my uncle which is my mum elder bro uncle peter..was juz arrived wif his fam..my cousin la 2...my mum's younger bro..uncle pilyus had arrived earlier than us..ahx..packed ol of our stuffs..well you know..during cny..there is must be a lot of foods..walla..as me enter da kitchen..fods..n more foods..n a lot of beverages..half of da kitchen..no...1/3 of da kitchen was surrounded by foods..as our kitchen der is so big..lalaa..huhu..unpack ol of da stuffz//then..went to da livin' room..meet wif ma cuz..steve..had a little chit chat..then..my uncle peter brought me 2 da shops..buy some stuffs..as i'm wAitin 4 my uncle..then i saw..my cousin..sis shareen wif her dad..my uncle la..enterin da shop..then i try 2 call my cousin whch is her bro..matthew...wanna know wer is he at dat tym..but..cannot contct him..so me spinning ma head around to find him...haha,,he was in the petrol station..haha..i wave 2 him hopefully he realised i was there..its worked...then he called me..asked m when i arrived..then i told my uncle..that uncle meliko was in dat shop..we waitin 4 a couple of mins..huhu...then..they talked 4 a minutes or two...while me...chit chatted with sis shareen..ahax..then..went back 2 home..watchin a bit...then...went 2 shower...aftr that,my uncle said...go 2 my cousin haus...duh????wth...time shows like 9.00pm ody ka 2..then we juz go la my uncle said..as it is da CNY eve..haha,,,lala..then go la...arrvd there...T..DOOR SHUt HAHA...my uncle there ody asleep..drunk ody..ahax..went baxk la..watchin muV wif cousins..talk bout our life..then..we slept la..this wut happen during da CNY eve..

glance of cny

bro,cousin and I at our uncle's haus






1st angpau i guess...




da firecracker...



still..during da CNY eve



3 minutes plus ow da duration..

CHINESE NEW YEAR..

CHINESE NEW YEAR..

not beeen bloggin 4 a couple of days..went back 2 my kampung at kuala penyu 2 celebrate chinese new year as my mother side inherits chinese blood so as the tradition..we will celebrate it..even there is no longer the praying session according 2 buddhism in my late grandma haus as ol of them already been converted from buddha 2 christian...if im not mistaken..the last tym the custom praying held in ma haus was back in 2003..i think la..even there is no longer that praying stuffz in ma haus ..we still head back 2 kg every year 2 celebrate chinese new year as my otha' cousin still celebratin thiz...even da siblings of my late grandma n late grandpa still doing da customs...rite..gonna tell you all more bout diz CNY soon in da next blog..so tired liao..juz arrived from ma kg diz noon..so fuckin tired..huhu..but still it was nice and great CNy..huhu

wut can i say..

anne yg minta upload..haha

when da brat meets da brat=nice quarrel=bitch=bertumbuk la kmu

wallup!!!!!..laz nite was quite fun..haha..me post 1 phrase ba kat fb..as my title above shown..haha..actlly me juz sent da post 4 suka2 ja ba 2...then sekali si Anne coment on dat post..huhu...walllala..open stry geng!!!..haha..we chatted story sort of typical bitches yg ada d MRSM..do you think bdk2 mrsm ne bookworm ka smua???yg semua bljr ja 24/7 hours..pls la..ada jg yg msk sana..mmg typical bitch pnya..mnta puji..mcm shit2 ja..but 1 thing yg i realised kn..d MRSM xda plak org yg typical QUEEN B..as we watched in da movie..evry hi'school will has their own QUEEN B..but d MRSM mmg xda la..dunno y..dat is my point of view..myB bdk2 MRSM mmg terdidik pnya org la..some of them..really not..haha..ok...back to dIZ post..both of us really had a wonderful time 2 talk about a group of people in MRSM yg minta puji la..yg term d MRSM..MPO..stands 4 MINTA PUJI ORANG..dui..plz la..but..on the otha' hand..ada jg la yg bitch yg saluted type..haha..coz...dorang ne mmg cool n f xsuka 2 org mmg kna la..haha...then dorang ne mmgg baik la jg..even gaya mcm noTTy kn..yg mcm bitchy2 pnya..but still they r much better then people yg bukan naturally bitch tryin so hard to be a BITCH..gosh..plastic ryt..wut a fake..suda la jd mr n mrs copy cat..plz la..dui...

huh..

huhu..wut else life can be..tryin every single second 2 figure out to overcome my boredom...seems school life is much better..huhu..why i dun hv anotha options..like..hv a job..i wanna hv a job..but i dunno why i am been so dumb NOT 2 grab any vacancies while it is available..cyrill..please..u had a vow 2 yourself!!!!!!!wth???what else can i say..time ticklin so fast...its FEBRUARY ody..then MARCH will shade ma life..da day of my future life destination will lies...SPM RESULT will come out...so freakin scared...huh!!!!!hope i got a flying colours result..AMEN...plus..when is da time will come that i will be learned to be independent...daa..cyrill..you alredy turned 18th...you should think like an adult..fade away all away your kids stuffs..let the old memories be bygone....don't care anymore about your so called fosters????they will not be by your side forever..it is already come to the end...END cyrill..please...stop it!!!!!!!!!!!!!you are da foolish who still thinking and care about them..but on the other hand..do they care about you??do they wish you??do they still in touch with you??....NOOOOOOOO....hence..forget about it..do not care about it...so what?????YOU Live in a LIE 2 yourslef..you been betrayed!okay relax...chill la...apa lg mo sedih2 psl dorang 2..tiada guna ba..dui..cyrill..myself..sedar la...huhu...this is fuck..hell ya..

ages ago..

huhu...its such a long time do not bloggin ya..many things happen n passed by..huhu...well.recently..i stuck wif sore throat..damn..how i hate so much sore throat..then..went to do clinic..the doctor said my throat a.k.a tonsil(forgot ody wut its specific name..huhu) is colour in red..lala..then..he prescriped me with some of da medicine..will post it later..huhu..then flu stuck..wth???i juz wnna get rid of the soreness then flu struck..a bad flu..dammit..really can't sleep well that nite..but hey..da medicines are doinng well..my soreness bygone in a fster time..but still da bad flu still with me..until now..but i feel much better now..huhu..got connected with some of ma oldfrenz..really happy..n da bez part is..we got a same hatred of a lady that we hate..haha..cool..we talk shit a lot of diz gurl..haha..bru dy tw..ahax..btw..CNY is juz around da corner..huhu..shopink is marked but still ma hair is not yet done..dun hv time 2 go to da shop 2 buy da hair colourer..still need 2 rely wif da stupid hair spray..well..i hope tomorro i got chance 2 go..still need 2 buy gift for my friends..one of them already belated birthday...da otha'one will be comin 15 diz 27th..need 2 buy earlier coz at dat tym she myb at mrsm so no ideas how 2 give her..so buy early..pass it with my frenz 2 give it 2 her..haha...still..my spm result will come out soon..i'm terrified..how my result gonna be??hope i passed with flying colours..dup..dap..i can feel ma heartbeat beating faster as da adrenaline flowing smoothly as my fear took over....wish me best of luck..pray 2 da Go..hope He will grant me His blessed..huhu...

03rd february

lala...i woke up today...6.40 am...huhu..wth wrong wif me??haha..nvr mind..got a lot of stuffs to do ow..haha..me bgn..rendam baju yg me beli klmrn..mop lantai..haha..wash ol of dishes...washed ma brand new clothes(still next post la aq post ye)..haha..huhu..then took ma bath..haha..open laptop...trs prepare brg nak bt brkfst..thiz is da funniest part..i planned since laz nite dat i wanted 2 make pancakes..so excited la ne.._kunun la_..haha..then..mo bt la ne mixture dy suda..kluar semua brg2 ba..butter..kaya..choc syrup..choc bar..flour..pa lg ah??then aq heat choc bar dgn butter as i ever saw in da tv..in Nigella Feast show..haha..kinda menjadi la..then mo bt 2 adunan dy la..aq pn 1st tym bt..bt ja la mcm besa..ikut instinct aq la cmna nak bt bnda ne..duh...masuk la dlm adunan 2..melted choc + butter..choc syrup..susu pekat..lala..mix2 it..ready da pan..then pur it..SHIT..itz not expand as da usual pancakes do!!!!..then me gt new idea...juz pour it all together..n see wut happen..sekali...after keluarkn 'pancakes' aq 2 dr pan...na taste..damn..pa taste dy ne..hilang ba apppetite trs..haha..dahla..banyak benda nak cuci..xpa..take it as a lesson..then aq continue on9 smbl dgr hitz.fm kat tv ne..kn kat keningau ne xdpt broadcast die..sabo2 je la..haha...klu tym dulu kat mrsm 2..awal pagi suda membuka hitz..haha..then JJ & EAN(hitz.fm morning crew)did announced 4 da Oscar nominations..me surfing da internet 4 further infos..haha..wow..avatar got many nominations diz tym..da bad is..me blm lg tgk ne avatar film..shit..mna la mo tgk moVs ne kat kgu..kgu bukannya ada cinema..f kat KK ne..d MRSM..weekend sewa kereta swa pg tgk..oops...busted..biarla..old story...haha...my bad..ahax..xpa la..nt beli disc dia ja..haha...then me doin some chores 4 da noon side..haha..pas2 me tgk tv..havin ma lunch la..watchin again..then ma mum said..pg town!!!..wanna hv ma new haircut..4 CNY lor..wuo you liang zhai look ma nt tym CNY..haha..duh..broken eh..rosak suda ma pinyin..haha..xpa nt bljr blk..haha.ma hairstylist was superb..haha..but i'll x show ma new hair until i gt ma new hair colour..haha..wait la ye..btw..me mmg nak dye ma hair 4 diz CNY..haha...4get it..blk rumah..its so hot la kat cne..so panas..huh?..mati la ne..hotam..haha(talkin lyk a bitch)...blk..bt keja..mkn..lala...so sleepy la me..haha..ody found dat 3oh!3's song..huhu..nice...okla..nt me post lg ye...xtw da pa mo tulis ne..

p/s: got ody to do list 4 me tomorow..:wipe da main windows...huh?*sigh*..haha.
bye..

wut da hell??

haha..i found diz ma frenz of mine pnya fb..sial....dunno y...kima2 dy 2..haha..wtf??pa yg sy ckp ne...haha..bila found dy pnya fb..he said..bila lg mo pg clubbin???...shit..mcm sy ne kaki clubbin...haha..xpa la..sy jwb nt la..ba..then he said lg sy tunggu kw ah..kita hentam semua club 1 mlm..haha...sial..mati jg kn..haha..xpa..dy spend..haha

february opening!!

huh??yesterday was 2nd 0f feb ody kn...haha..me went 2 kk wif ma mum..ma mum wanna collect her tesis at kingfisher..haha...me woke up at 5.30 am..omg.......lama suda xbgn awal mcm 2 tw..awal gila 2...last bangun mcm 2 bila ah..tym 1st day spm ka??coz tym spm pn bgn jam 6..haha..gila ow..rindu skul ow..trs pg mnD..msi lg kental mnD awal pagi...5thn geng mnD jam 5...haha..pas2..redy2..msk kereta..pg bas station..naik bas jam 7..haha....otw 2..boring gila..nsb bek gt ma hp..dgr2 lagu..pas2 tym ikt jalan lama papr.teringat tym skul dlu naik teksi..ikt jalan ne..bila dkt kawang suda..naa..mo dkt suda simpang mrsm yg kat blkg 2..trs bila lalu..huhu..rindu nya..lepas suda simpang..mcm jalan g cuc suda...haha..lalu monfort...lalu pekan kinarut..tmpt aq membeli-belah tym skul dlu lps dr cuc..haha..pas2 lalu pg st.augustine..rindu nya aq..smp kat stesen..brkfst dlu kat gaya street...pas2 naik teksi pg kingfisher..then lepas ambl tesis mum aq..nak balik bandar kk..cr2 teksi ne xda plak..naaa..berjalan kaki aq dgn mum aq pg jalan raya besar..panas..at lest aq exercise jg la..haha...naik bas..turun kat segama 2...pg wisma merdeka..tong's mari..nak shopink jap..1st stop..oreef la..haha..nak cr kemeja oreef kali ne utk CNY..xjmpa la..kmpa baju lain..cantik..then ma mum said msT cr baju merah utk CNY..cr pnya cr..mmg xjmpa..aq pg BUM lg..cr jg..ada yg smat..sekali...xda size..tp ada beli jg la kat BUM..sekali jln2 pnya jln..jmpa la baju 2..ok nt next post aq attach pic baju2 2 ye..berjemur skrh baju 2..haha...then kat segama..lunch..pg milimewa..mum aq nak beli limau mandarin..pg padang merdeka..naik bas jam 1..haha.mengantuk aq..dahla ada org nt kecoh td..em..mal aq mo melayan..smpai kat keningau almost jam 4..pas2..wait 4 ma dad..blk rumah..do ol of stuffz..jam 9 aq tdo dah..penat..