5more days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yeepie.....it's just 5 more days before im heading back 2 Sabah.2 celebrate christmas!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY..can't wait..mood mw pg kelas pn hilang2 suda ne..hahahah...today is the beginning of the 4rd advent..a week before Christmas..i went to the church today..and praise to the God that i'm be a ble to do my confession today..Alleluia..it is such a blessing for me..huhu...before going back, there is a lot of stuffs too be settled..ASsIGNMENTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

plus...ALLOWANCE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!please la masuk..be my guest of honor dlm account sy*quote miss syira here...sy mw shoping..wait here is the list to do

- after elaun masuk;
-shoping
>shirtS
>new jeans
>new bag
>shoes* mcm xpyh..minta sponsor FAMA..haha
>new pair of contact lens
>cut hair
>dye my hair*again
-settle of the payment
>books
>yuran*nt la..hahah
plus..enjoy2 d sabah nt.. gt plan olredy..haha
anything i miss???haha..hrp2 la i can spend mym money wisely..
before that..assignment yerh mR. cyc...jgn lupa assignment..jadi rajin sikit la ye..

apa lg mc ckp ne ah??elaun please la ba masuk..besok ah ko masuk..hahahah..dui ba...
ba yalah...assignment luk..haha

what else i can do

huh..life is hard..there is no deniable...
hopefully elaun masuk cepat2!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1hopefully by tomorrow la..
tlg KPTM..masukkn la elaun kami a.s.a.p..by tomorrow ka
amen..
huhu..hopefully before christmas break,,,xda la apa2 big test supaya i can get ready and enjoy my christmas spirit..haha..and also after the break..a week later ka bru start apa2..supaya boleh blend in..haha
can't wait to get back for xmas..hahaha
my foster bro..the oldest one..please comment me...I hope u read diz...

3rd advent

now its the 3rd advent..2 more weeks before christmas..
lot of things to do
assignments
huh..gt a lil blurred on my legal system assignment
need to find a lot of articles regarding my thesis..haha
take a short break right now from searching articles..huhu...
gt persuasive speech to do and present tomorrow
and i am damn sleepy

back to college...

2nd week at university done!!!
nay..still a long time to go..im going crazy with all the assignments...but one thing for sure...i can't waiy fir christmas!!!!!!!!!yeah...but b4 dat lotsa things to do dammit...now at CC with my friend..haha..doing a lil criminal by staying out late..ahax

this what i feel

im feeling down and ALIENATED PLUS SECLUDED

in da middle of da nite, i am clueless..looking through my FB is totally boring and lame...i dunno why, i listening to da song 'love the way you lie' over and over again..then i switch 2 the clubbin rythm which club you cant handle me..im feeling down..im clueless, im full of fonder, i keep thinking bout my brories...there is also something that bothers me..ow how i realised im not such a faithful disciples of Jesus...im been through a lot of sins that i knew those are wrong and sinful, i love you Lord Jesus..be blessed..amen...writing helps me express my self..i think i am so stupid that create my own inner drama...ow gosh...i am lonely, people might see me as a jollyful and happy person, but da reality is i am lonely, nobody wanna chats with me at facebook..nobody wanna text me, nobody wanna greets me, do I the only one yg ingat dorang or memang sy yg ego..so in this case, me da one who really search for them..ow gosh..this is______________, memang macam ne ja la hidup sy..sy yg cr org kasi gembira sma kasi rapat hubungan...dorang xkisah pn sma sy..adei...Tuhan tolong la sy..bantu la sy..so tat means, i shud open my heart for love*ow damn...entah la, maybe memang sy org yg terpinggir and type of person yg pigi cr org..ow gosh..patutla org ckp sy ne xpandai malu..klu sy ckp sy malu, dorang heran.pukima jg kn..ow! i shud stop memaki..adeiz..sampai ada org ckp sy ne minta puji ba..pnya men sedih sy, sy pnya character memang mcm 2 la ba kn..entah la..sy sorang ja la ne kn yg take care of anybody else..klu cm2 kn.bgs sy hidup sorang2..budu..boring ba dunia!!!!!!!!! Do i really need to show my effort to find them..ee..sy bosan suda mcm ne ow,,,mcm kena guna2 jax ba,,kima2,,klu mo tw la kn..chatlist sy kadang smp 60orang online..tp kesian kn..sorang pn xchat sma sy..mcm palui ja la ne sy kn..bgs sy delete FB sy teruS..tp FB ne bagus..coz i can easy cr maklumat such as classes and also CSS schedule..i2 la 2 sy blm mw delete FB sy..adez..so kesian ow kn me,.kena bt cmne,,damn2..adei xtw lg la cmna mw ckp..nama jax ada kwn..tp sy rasa sy belum jumpa my true friend/s..sy btl pray and hope yg Tuhan akan tolong sy..or memang ada suda cuma sy jax yg xtw...ow Lord,please help me..ee...RECLUSE OW SY RSA!!!!!!!!!!sy sedih ow dgn hidup sy...xguna ow sy caring sma dorang..ka sy jax yg ego..xmw sms la kunun..xmw start conversation.then terus da lil'devil inside my heart ckp...takkan mesti ko jax kn..haha..dui ba.mcm ada bad and good sides ne on my both sides..

this is I want

is this the want i've been seeking for?

i want DSLR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i love the sunset

stand alone..

well...em.hye,*no idea how to start this entry*
haha..life goes by as its shown..nothing much really this holiday..no new stuffs..boring as it is..lame as it feels, sucks as I can see..haha..
lalalal..dunno what to say..ok.. these are my words:

yesterday*..
went to KK..bought a new pair of spectacles..miahaha..smart la jg..ahax..quite ok..the went to suria...jalan2..padahal suria 2 mcm boring ne..xda pa2 pn..adess..penat jax berjalan..pas2 go 2 1B with my father long lost friend..but wait before kami smp 1b kn..dorang mw bergmbr dlu..i mean dorang mw snap pic sunset..wow..all of them ada DSLR..jealous ow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!..huhu..i want one of like that..DSLR u will be and already be in my wish list..haha..smart ow sunset d sabah kn..bukan la bru sy sedar but really smart ow..yg penting penat berjalan klmrn..wtF..haha

ow gosh..exam result will be announced soon..sy takut ow..hopefully i'll get gempak pnya rsult..amin..*pray harder cyrill!! May God bless me..huhu...

wow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

after long time i din post anything here in my blog, then tiba2..ada mood plak mw berblogging ne mlm..haha..
ok 1st..to all my followers i wolud like to apologise for doesnt has the intention 2 blogging..haha..so sorry ok..its been a long time..really very2 long time..haha..well..my life had changed a lot..yes!!A lot. no doubt about that,,
being a student..well..a university student title!!DUh*..haha
landed on da course that i never dreamed of 2 be..then fly away from east to the almost west of malaysia..to be in da middle of the chaotic life..huh!!!
i dunno how i can changed my self from a bit to a massive changed in these 5 months or more...see..during i was staying in shah alam..i never grab the chance to update my blog..on the other hand when about 8 months ago, i was thinking blogging is such an opportunity for me to express my feeling then it turned down,haha..wow!!!...dear my blog..u had missed a lot of things that i should shared with you..haha..

well the real point i am writing here is.ok blog i know u noe..yap!!!
im been depressed again...for such along time also..i nvr suffer from this kind of feeling since during the post spm hols before..but then..being such alone in this long sem break makes me, i think fall into the depression again.. such have a feeling that they dun take care of me again., they dun want to know about me.they had the bad feeling..hence, i intend to deactivate my FB..but well, this is yet not a crucial circumstance, but i already took the baby steps where i dun log in often to my FB, but just look through the notifications via my email where i still can take a glance on what happen in my FB..i dunno.u noe that mr. blog, that feeling that we've been shared through ages ago..haha..so i can conclude here..PEOPLE IN FACEBOOK, THEY REALLY LET ME DOWN, IM TIRED OF IT,.plus all the brories made me sick..ok im feeling so guilty to tell it here, but i dun care..well, i think i had spent about rm 100++ to buy them for their souveniers..which is not a cheapskate materials but things that I dun have for myself..well..is this karma?? i just hope my karma is back..no!!!!!!! These already been destined by our Lord Jesus, praise to Him,im trying very hard*ok not too hard*..to have them back especially the eldest which is____________________okay i dunno what is the right word..but..duh!!!it just a piece of shit..i cant stand it anymore..the world makes me sick...it is such a tough life for me..i cant barely stand and defeat it!!!! The circumstances that i've been through make my self creates his own drama and own stupid mens rea..ow this is totally crap..i bullshit my self..i dunno..i've been bundled it for my own to take it alone and swallow it..but thanks be to God..i can digest it very well..where i digest it to pieces and let go..so i can move forward..wow its sucah a long entry..well NVM..it is a treat for my so-not-updated-blog..haha..okay..till then..

continuing life....

well...sebenarnya saya malas mahu upd8 blog saya ne..bukan x masa..berlambak masa ne mw update tp teda mood,malas,tiada idea pa yg mo tulis plus i like to keep it myself..haha...okay..once again briefly..

Driving test
-on the 19th of april 2010..i went to re-take for my driving test..and thanks God..i passed..haha...so saya pass suda tinggal tunggu lesen..lg..on the 23rd of april went back to my driving institute to urus all dat stuufs for license's requirements..maybe diz week keluar la lesen P saya itu..haha...

Further study

- still belum ada ne offer datang..on the 23rd juga me sent my application form to Taylor's college..then..me baru tahu juga yesterday yang me dpt call for temuduga maktab perguruan which is happen on 10th may..and got essay to do..tapi belum but..look through ja soalan2 dia hari 2..haha..nt la sy buat./.boleh ba 2 kn..


KK trip(24th-25th of april 2010)


so actually benda ni memang best..tp malas mo tulis panjang2..nanti la saya bg tw in detail..klu mo tw contact me la..haha./.dui2..ahax...em..naik bas jam 8 am sama si olga in the 24th 2..smp kat kk..nico ambl..kmi pg cp..mkn dlu..sbb si nico lapar..pas2 si calen smp,pas2 tunggu si sylvia..then kmi pg men boling..haha..budu..bida sy men..lama suda tidak main kn..haha..pas2 men pool ja..kejap ja..saya la..haha..then go watch movie..kick-ass..ow..memang best tu movie..totally ah..saya sangat suka..2 thumbs up liao..haha.then jumpa pina...we all went to SR warisan..mkn2 sana..plus cerita2..smp jam 6 ka 2..pas2 said our goodbyes..then pg beach..mkn2 sana..next balik rumah si I..penat ow..tp sekali jam 3 juga kmi tidur..pnya la banyak kmi cerita..tidak tahu la..haha...pa mo jd..du..routine suda 2 untuk kami kn..haha...


25th april-

bangun jam 8..astaga..berpa jam ja tidur..breakfast..pas2 tgk tv..siap2..mandi2..kol si N suru ambl kmi..pas2 lunch..chao..off 2 cp..pg windows shopping jap..went 2 warisan..bought clothes 8 EX-boutique..huhu..a shirt only ah..sorry la..haha...then pg Big-App..mkn donut la..pa lg..blk cp..jmpa dorang2..cer2..3.30 pm..naik kereta off 2 padang merdeka..saying goodbyes..jump into bus..heading back keningau..say bye2 2 my friends and kk...huhu...datz ol..my short(really short trip) 2 keningau...


APPRECIATION :

THANK YOU 2 WAWAN'S FAMS AND HIMSELF..SI NICO SBB JD OUR TRAVEL GUIDE HAHA./ACTUALY DRIVER KMI LA..AHAX..EM..SEPA LG AH??SMA SEMUA LA..LUV2...HUHU

loooooooooooooon time again..

okay..memang lama sudah saya tidak mengemaskini blog saya ini..haha..saya sedang mencuba untuk menulis dalam Bahasa Melayu yang formal dan betul setelah sekian lama tidak membuat penulisan Bahasa Melayu yang sebetulnya seperti tempoh masa yang lama juga saya tidak mengemaskini blog saya ini..: ok..straight to the point..banyak la terjadi..malas aq mo update blog ne..huu.ok briefly..

studies' offers..

• em..matriks saya tidak dapt..bukn rezeki kot.
• last saturday..which is 10th of april..went to uitm sabah..got temuduga for asasi TESL..went well..hopefully..thanks be to God..finger crossed..spya dpt..amin..
• maktab perguruan??xtw lg masih

• so far..itu ja yg aq ble update psl future study aq..like mcm sedih la jg kn..matriks tidak dapat..so biarla.

driving stuffs

• actually kan..12th april tu kn..aq JPJ test swa ba..tp xdpt..gagal aq..d bukit 2 suda aq gagal..dui..pa mo jadi..so..19th april ne aq re-take..hopefully saya dapat la..cross finger*..amen..xsanggup lg menanggung kegagalan..

hazel,amoi and sylvia pay a visit 2 keningau
- cerita dia mcm ne..8th april dorang 3 ne pg keningau la..ikut si olga..then jumpa besok nya..9th april..jln2..kunun ba..sekejap ja ne..mkn2 sma dorang d honey sweet cafe..sekejap ja jmpa dorang..mo pg kk kn 2 petang..ada interview ne..huhu..so tats ol..

norsyazwani's bufday..
- haha..ini lawak..yg 2 ari kn..bila 2 ah..ow ya..13th april..bufday si wanie ba..then kmi ada plan la knn mo pg mkn ne..haha..sekali terus pop up 1 plan..pg mkn rojak d warung yg area sini2 ja ba 2..haha..then jam 3 la..brkoling la knn ne kmi..haha..ok2..set..terus me sedia la..jalan kaki wha..xjg jauh la..sekali smp jalan besar..hujan turun..mendung suda ba 2 tym 2..haha..tp xlebat..me kol wanie..dia ckp..dia tunggu dpn golf club suda..jalan ja la sy..haha..hujan la..drizzle only ba tat..tp angin kuat..smp la kmi..haha..mkn rojak..sedap wha..sanggup ne kmi brjln semata2 mw mkn rojak ja.n sambut bufday dia..walaupn xjg la sebnarnya celbrtaion..hha..smart2 ow..tym 2 napa la me xbw kereta..even fail kn..ble suda ba 2..mst confident ma..haha..huhu..

so apa lagi sy mo ckp ne..anything i miss out to be blogged??haha...can't think of it ow..f me ingat nt me send dlm next blog la ya..haha..if wanna check pics on my interview and wanie's bufday..feel free 2 check my facebook..well,im still not used to know how to put a link in my blog..nt aq bljr..so bru senang kn 2 all reades..for you convenience..em..mlas mo upload photos..so for anyone yg tw FB aq..chck2 la pics aq sana..daa..bye..huhu

goes on..dilemma..

as usual today..no extraordinary..well..today is my last hour of driving lesson..haha..em..btw..td kn time tunggu my tutor 2 pick me up kn..im sittin down 2 satu bench diz..terus..ada la 2 mamas ne wif their kids sittin next to me..they are talkin..i had no idea wut 2 they talkin ..haha..then..got diz 1 of the mums is holding a cup of water..ala..cmna arg..yang drinking water but bukan dlm bottle but dlm satu tmpt yg mcm cup 2..then a sheet of plastic is covered its upper side..got it??huhu.then ba..she was holding that after her daughter is no longer want that..then she threw it away straight to da drain..but..did u noe..the dustbin is provided and the dustbin is not far..less than 30seconds 2 go and return..dui ba..xda kesedaran btl ba..pa la mo jd..plus they are not local..so ble tw la kn..em..bahasa dorang 2 pn entah bahasa pa..astga..dui as a sabahan..terasa la ba kn..buang smpah gitu ja..btl la ba..2 dustbin bkn nya jauh pn..huh./.wat to do..ok next..haha..went to litar..bljr bukit..haha..lawak..2 kali me turun blk..x ckp kuat mo naik..haha..but ok la jg..ahax..then gone home..ahax..lalala..notink to do..diz nite is fun..had chit-chatted a lot of frenx..huhu..best la jg..ym-ing with miss sukma..we are talkin no crap..we talkin some adult stuffs..matured huh??hha..plus..me wanna cut hair ba ne..long ody..xtahan suda..rimas..me dun prefer long hair as me ssh mo kc style.haha..dui..ahax..entah la..such in dilemma..haha..ok..la..till then..

raining,,, a Bless from God

it is raining here...

huhu..nice..it is raining right now..in keningau..like it gonna be the whole afternoon the rain is pouring,,thanks be to God.that He grant us with this blessed..after a long time the rain doesn't comes...huhu..so nice..i had my nap tadi..haha..sejuk2 best2..klu d dorm ne..dui..confirm prep petang x aq pg..haha...then td my mum juz went home from her meeting..she bought kuih-muih..yai..sedap..ahax..got karipap..i2 ja aq nmpk..ptg2 ne..sejuk2 lae..mkn2 kuih..minum hot choc..or hot milo..sedapp...enjoy..hahaha..ptg2 klu hujan time d mrsm..haha..prep petang xpg..klu pg pn..bkn study,,haha..men2..enjoyin the rain..klu rmi org turum riadah..pg la jg..bez jg ow..riadah tym2 hujan..dui..lama suda x pg riadah..ahax..plus..klu dtg gila..lepas lunch ja..jam 2 g2..hujan2 suda..tidur the whole afternoon smp jam 6 pn blh..haha..duh???astaga...haha,,bez ow...ahax..huhu,..menyingkap semula cerita2 lama d mrsm..haha..so many great things happen there..huh??u juz miss it..ahax...

new post..

wow..long time din post anything..haha..so many things happen..continue my driving lesson..draws 2 end..huhu..went back to my school..mrsm kota kinabalu..visited a lot of frenz and teachers...accompany my friend irneza zaihan..haha..hv fun that time..totally have fun ow..ahax..nt next post me cer ok..haha..wut to say again..today went to drive again..4pm suda..ptg suda..my tutor pn looks exhausted..then me terus fikir..he penat suda..msT dia bad mood 2..em..btl ne..petang suda ba..me da last person he taught..you can noe la kn..petang ba 2 suda..haha..learned parking today..ahax..ok la..sama buat latihan 3 penjuru..can do lae..haha..wow..ahax..miss my friends and bros..huhu

long time suda ne..

wow..long time suda ne sy xbloggin..haha..many things happen(banyak meh??)
haha..diz school break is sucks..haha..mcm la sy ne masih in school life..cuti ja sy 3 bulan suda..haha..i said it so coz didn't went anywer diz hols..quite boring la..buka skul bru sy jln..haha...btw..my driving license is still x yet done..sucks ow..lama suda ne..4bulan suda..lama gila ow..bukan la apa kn sy mo ckp..kwn2 sy yg len dpt suda...yg sma2 bengkel pn ada suda lesen..baru la ne..aiya..mcm terlampau ramai ba org my tutor pegang..shutZ..mw jg sy ckp..but u noe la kn cmna jg..got segan la ba jg kn..dui~~~~..haha..many times i felt down because of the same reason..never changed-huh..upset o me diz..lalala..life is so beautiful..many things in our life are so wonderful to be explored and enjoyed..huhu..well..best of luck 2 me so that i can enrol in the best university and pursue my dream and ambition..amen...

journey of me..

long time x blogging...many things happen surrounding me...from spm to everyday life..
my spm result was announced..em..quite ok la...dun want to talk bout dat..haha....it is school mid sem break rite now..for those r still in school la...em..wut to say...haha..quite banyak berjalan jg la kali ne..haha...fun jg la..then i had dreamed sumthing dat is really unexpected..haha....school's out..then banyak la 2 MORON2 yg annoying on9..benci saya...haha...damn...nt la me talk lg ah..next posy\t...

freaking out.terrifying

omg..tomoroow will be 11th march ody..so scared...bloggin at this time surely relieve a bit my tension...i am totally scared la..to be honest..spm!!!!!!many people said SPM is most important as it will decide you which path are you heading to...ow...argh...stress...the ecpectations from my family is too high..i can feel it...studying in boarding school will give you a higher expecattaions from your surrounding..i do not say that studying in regular schools are not..but from my point of view as a student.i am studying in boarding school..so i can feel their hopes towrds me are really high..and they expect me to be the best and get a flying colours result...huh!i scared that i can't fulfill the expectations..even the teachers are giving their hopes to us..even the society..you do not want to be insulted by society.."h was studied in boarding school..but result..average ja".ooow i dun want to be like that..dammit..why now i realised all of these stuffz...ow..forgot it..there is no time to regret..the result will be announced in less than 12 hours..all the best for me..hope God will grant me peace and success..so that i can further my study and be an excellent person and contributes to my family.religion and nation..amen...welll.lots of luck..amen..

freaking out.terrifying

SPM mo kuar suda...
11th march 2010..
bersamaan hari khamis..
mati la ne..
i'm scared ow..
cmna la my result tu nt ah...
hrp2 bgs la..
amen..
probz lg skrg..
aq xtw mo pg mna pasni...