Reluctant

okay, today is 7th of sept

1oth of sept will fly back to KL

11th/9 will be reg my hostel

12th/9 first day of class

tell you what!!!

i am not ready yet back to the university

now i am questioning my decision to choose this course!!!

ow Lord please help me..

confuse!!!

astga

memang gila!!

bodoh

sowt

i dunno how i face this

its been years

no progress or changes

should i change myself though??

from what aspect??

astga!!

i am dying of loneliness and fucked up..

short updates

- x lama lagi mau sambung study

-takut pn ada..

-masuk course yg x pernah imagine aq akan masuk

- xpa...hope all the best

- ada lg kA mw urus ne?? haha

- gaji aq blm masuk..mcm mna mw shopingg *big oops*

like seriously

- cuti yg lama ne telah buatkn aq reluctant to leave Sabah

-My heart glued to Sabah suda

- ada penyesalan dalam memilih ipt tahun lepas

-xpa la semua ada hikmah dia

ok, be strong..God bless..xx

???

life macam biasa ja,
did do some part time on tuesday and wednesday

ow, i did transfer some of my airtime to her so she can sms her bf dgn mudah

dan sy xreply suda sms tu sbb sy mau bg ruang sama dorang

kn sweet kn...babi la sweet, mau meletupx ada la..sial!!

xpa la, relax, cool je..

tak pa...before this pun pernah kena macam ne, so macam kisah kn

hidup jg..life must goes on...

p/s the couple i mentioned above is my students when i was a substitute teacher in their school/.:P

blalallala

Face the Music

life is so unfair!!!

fairness and justice

working hard to achieve these 2

and i speak up for my self!!!

why i cant have my on justice

be fair on me as well

you might say i am selfish!!

but hey...so you think you are consider enough to others!!

don't you ever wanted yourselves to have the special treat and look!!!

and i am facing this!!

i wonder hows on earth myself was built to face this

stronger and stronger!!!!

bodoh!!!!l

it is so hard

biarlah saya malas mahu kisah sudah

kah diri saya saja fikir saya yang terlampau kisah benda-benda macam ini

sakit hati, sakit otak...

so nanti saya mahu tinggal alone la

hahaha

p/s saya mahu deactivate lagi facebook sy

summer job

and tomorrow 11thjune 2011

will be my resignation day of being a substitute teacher

should be sad

will miss the kids....

the experiences gained, funs and talks

i had the courage

and today i talked in front of the 6A class during my periods

i talk please change yourself and respect others..

you and i are the same, both of us are students

but please control yourself

i dunno if the 2 persons really 'terasa'

but honestly i dun want lose them both and the rest of it

it is such an awkward thing to enter their class again

tomorrow will be the first period of the day..

haihz...but I already let go what i feel

then yet no sounds of relieve

p/s suda minta maaf kunun tu betina tp still ckp benda yg sama jg..FUCK U betina..kena panggil baby knn..GO TO HELL!!

i'm in love???

actually kn..sebenarnya la...aq suka jadi single ne...

ramai jg (ramai ke?) yg tnya aq..ada GF ka teda..

jwb ja teda..napa pula teda GF??

sbb aq suka single..

aq malas nak fikir psl2 coupling ne..couple2 thingy...

but i adore lovely couple and i pray for everyone who is in relationship to be blessed, enjoy and cherish in your relationship..

for me, let time decides it..as God decides what the best for all of us

plus, i am still young to think seriously about getting in a serious relationship..

just my share thought and my opinion..:)

sy yg sombong ka?? atau org memang teda mw kwn sm sy..

teda org tnya khabar pn sy..

sy on9 pon teda org mw chat sma sy..sandih ba hidup,,

org2 yg sy mksdkn ialah my friends..

or

do i really have friends that accept me as their friends??

give some life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11

i was wondering..entah la..mcm mna mw ckp..em...bukan apa la ln..friends d fb aq smp 700 lebih la jg ba kn..kadang2 org on9 smp 60-70 lebih..tp xsorang pn yg mw chat sma aq..mesti tnggu sy ka...haiz..sandih ba hidup..mcm teda kwn ba!! kima ba ne..sakit btl jiwa sy...tolong la sy..:(((((

be strong..:)

xpa la..even though i feel neglected and left out here..

nvm..

maybe sy yg xpndai bergaul sma org ba..2la smp mcm xkwn ne sy skrg..

boring..2 mmg boring la..sepa ckp xboring..klu suda xkwn kn..

tp ntah la..mcm mna sy boleh teruskn hidup dgn memandang the next day will be more greater day..pn xtw..praise to God..em..

mmg sedih la..terasa hati la..klu dorang cerita2 bnda yg d luar pengetahuan sy..dorang xinvite pn sy..xpa la...pa ble bt..bukan sy d terima dorang...actually..hidup sy kosong,empty..and sy boleh ckp ..sy xkwn yg boleh dengar pa masalah sy..sma share the great and sad time..sy hidup secara berseorangan...tp..as my quote says..live your live...God always be with you...huh...biarla..sy pn xtw lg pa mo ckp...seek a true friend/s mmg susah kn..:(((((..im dying inside..

life must goes on

- alrite..LAW 3 WAS DONE NOT-ALMOST-SATISFIED-

.PRAY THAT ALL GOING FINE FOR MY EXAM RESULT

-2papers more..struggling until the end

-watch HIKAYAT MERONG MAHAWANGSA yesterday at TGV JJ bt.raja

.it was fine..not so bad.ok la..

-life seems a bit complicated now

-thanks for my bro.F.. u appeared when i am in the lifeless mode though i was a lil'bit meant semalam..hehe

-ok my roomates are still sleeping..

-haha..eating breakfast now

-texting with my bro

-notes on my sides of the table

-hence<---?? what the heck..

. continues study

CONTEMPORARY GLOBAL AND LEGAL ISSUE

AND

ECONOMIC ISSUE AND PROBLEM

TACKLE YOU UNTIL PIECES

BY THAT,,hehe..i rest my case..toddles..:))

hv a nice day.:)

okay fine

- coincidence happened..nothing akward

- 2 papers down

-3 more to go

-tomorrow is a killer subject

-God please help me through this circumstance

- grant me ur blessing of wisdom

- today is a nice hang out day..i feel happy with the hang out today..after church.:))

okay..continue to study..

p/s i am incompetent to enter the examination tomorrow as i am the unsoundness of mind..hahaha...miahah..ok..:::)))

baiklah

FINAL EXAM IS COMING

SO WRAP IT UP

DESTINY

FUTURE

LIES IN UR HAND

okay fine...

sejak aq dr form 4 la kn..em tmbh2 la sikit..hujung2 tahun da kn..aq mcm bnyk fikir benda..

*ok fine actually aq xtw the real time is..mcm rasanya form 4 kot..huhu

bg aq kn...LIFE means a lot of things..LIFE is subjective..susah mw describe life kita...

for example..diri sy..sy pn xtw i lead what kind of life...MANY SCHOLARS quotes life is HARD, life is sacrifice, life is*many things lg la!!! but for me..in my personal view..we have just one life..hidup ne satu kali jax..kadang2 sy rasa kecew dengan diri sy..sebab sy rasa sy telah banyak mensia2kn hidup sy for the past 19years.. banyak benda want to be achieved..but we cannot aim high and tackle all of them in one time..apa lg sy mw ckp ah...pengalaman sy la..xbanyak mana pn pengalaman sy...sy nmpk la several things yg sy blh fikir sendiri..but i admired one of my friends..his life experienced is so many where he can sees people well..nmpk kita jax..blh tw suda apa..but every person had their own gift from God..thanks be to God..apa yg sy mw ckp..appreciate life..live your life tp ingat..God is there..mcm mna pn we lead our life..we still live under the eyes of our Creator..life is abstract...so be a good person..and enjoy life

symbolises freedom

i highlighted my hair with new color

huhu...even my previous color is still there..but i layered them with new color

dark auburn..haha

its still in process..

later at 10.50..

i'll wash it

tired!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THIS WEEK DEMANDS A LOT OF PHYSICAL AND MENTAL REACTION
OW DAMN..EVERY NIGHT GOT A DISCUSSION
EVERYDAY NEW THINGS NEED TO BE UPLOADED..
OW GOSH..NEXT WEEK GOT 2 PRESENTATION
HUH!!!!
GOD..GUIDE ME, GIVE ME STRENGTH AND WISE,,LEAD ME TO DO THIS ALL..AMEN..

wrapping up 2010

it will be 2011 in few more hours!!!!!!!!!!
fuh!! 2010 is a year that changes my life so much...
is it?? guess so
2010 in a glance:
its my 1st year after high school
high school was over
SPM result was out
enrolled into one of the high learning institutions in Malaysia
i got my drving license
experienced many new experiences
met many beautiful and nice people
made a lot of tough decisions
i knew better about Christ..praise be to Lord..
learned many new things
landed on the course that i never think of to take..
brothers!!!!!!!!!!!i miss you..

5more days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yeepie.....it's just 5 more days before im heading back 2 Sabah.2 celebrate christmas!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY..can't wait..mood mw pg kelas pn hilang2 suda ne..hahahah...today is the beginning of the 4rd advent..a week before Christmas..i went to the church today..and praise to the God that i'm be a ble to do my confession today..Alleluia..it is such a blessing for me..huhu...before going back, there is a lot of stuffs too be settled..ASsIGNMENTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

plus...ALLOWANCE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!please la masuk..be my guest of honor dlm account sy*quote miss syira here...sy mw shoping..wait here is the list to do

- after elaun masuk;
-shoping
>shirtS
>new jeans
>new bag
>shoes* mcm xpyh..minta sponsor FAMA..haha
>new pair of contact lens
>cut hair
>dye my hair*again
-settle of the payment
>books
>yuran*nt la..hahah
plus..enjoy2 d sabah nt.. gt plan olredy..haha
anything i miss???haha..hrp2 la i can spend mym money wisely..
before that..assignment yerh mR. cyc...jgn lupa assignment..jadi rajin sikit la ye..

apa lg mc ckp ne ah??elaun please la ba masuk..besok ah ko masuk..hahahah..dui ba...
ba yalah...assignment luk..haha