this is I want

is this the want i've been seeking for?

i want DSLR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i love the sunset

stand alone..

well...em.hye,*no idea how to start this entry*
haha..life goes by as its shown..nothing much really this holiday..no new stuffs..boring as it is..lame as it feels, sucks as I can see..haha..
lalalal..dunno what to say..ok.. these are my words:

yesterday*..
went to KK..bought a new pair of spectacles..miahaha..smart la jg..ahax..quite ok..the went to suria...jalan2..padahal suria 2 mcm boring ne..xda pa2 pn..adess..penat jax berjalan..pas2 go 2 1B with my father long lost friend..but wait before kami smp 1b kn..dorang mw bergmbr dlu..i mean dorang mw snap pic sunset..wow..all of them ada DSLR..jealous ow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!..huhu..i want one of like that..DSLR u will be and already be in my wish list..haha..smart ow sunset d sabah kn..bukan la bru sy sedar but really smart ow..yg penting penat berjalan klmrn..wtF..haha

ow gosh..exam result will be announced soon..sy takut ow..hopefully i'll get gempak pnya rsult..amin..*pray harder cyrill!! May God bless me..huhu...

wow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

after long time i din post anything here in my blog, then tiba2..ada mood plak mw berblogging ne mlm..haha..
ok 1st..to all my followers i wolud like to apologise for doesnt has the intention 2 blogging..haha..so sorry ok..its been a long time..really very2 long time..haha..well..my life had changed a lot..yes!!A lot. no doubt about that,,
being a student..well..a university student title!!DUh*..haha
landed on da course that i never dreamed of 2 be..then fly away from east to the almost west of malaysia..to be in da middle of the chaotic life..huh!!!
i dunno how i can changed my self from a bit to a massive changed in these 5 months or more...see..during i was staying in shah alam..i never grab the chance to update my blog..on the other hand when about 8 months ago, i was thinking blogging is such an opportunity for me to express my feeling then it turned down,haha..wow!!!...dear my blog..u had missed a lot of things that i should shared with you..haha..

well the real point i am writing here is.ok blog i know u noe..yap!!!
im been depressed again...for such along time also..i nvr suffer from this kind of feeling since during the post spm hols before..but then..being such alone in this long sem break makes me, i think fall into the depression again.. such have a feeling that they dun take care of me again., they dun want to know about me.they had the bad feeling..hence, i intend to deactivate my FB..but well, this is yet not a crucial circumstance, but i already took the baby steps where i dun log in often to my FB, but just look through the notifications via my email where i still can take a glance on what happen in my FB..i dunno.u noe that mr. blog, that feeling that we've been shared through ages ago..haha..so i can conclude here..PEOPLE IN FACEBOOK, THEY REALLY LET ME DOWN, IM TIRED OF IT,.plus all the brories made me sick..ok im feeling so guilty to tell it here, but i dun care..well, i think i had spent about rm 100++ to buy them for their souveniers..which is not a cheapskate materials but things that I dun have for myself..well..is this karma?? i just hope my karma is back..no!!!!!!! These already been destined by our Lord Jesus, praise to Him,im trying very hard*ok not too hard*..to have them back especially the eldest which is____________________okay i dunno what is the right word..but..duh!!!it just a piece of shit..i cant stand it anymore..the world makes me sick...it is such a tough life for me..i cant barely stand and defeat it!!!! The circumstances that i've been through make my self creates his own drama and own stupid mens rea..ow this is totally crap..i bullshit my self..i dunno..i've been bundled it for my own to take it alone and swallow it..but thanks be to God..i can digest it very well..where i digest it to pieces and let go..so i can move forward..wow its sucah a long entry..well NVM..it is a treat for my so-not-updated-blog..haha..okay..till then..

continuing life....

well...sebenarnya saya malas mahu upd8 blog saya ne..bukan x masa..berlambak masa ne mw update tp teda mood,malas,tiada idea pa yg mo tulis plus i like to keep it myself..haha...okay..once again briefly..

Driving test
-on the 19th of april 2010..i went to re-take for my driving test..and thanks God..i passed..haha...so saya pass suda tinggal tunggu lesen..lg..on the 23rd of april went back to my driving institute to urus all dat stuufs for license's requirements..maybe diz week keluar la lesen P saya itu..haha...

Further study

- still belum ada ne offer datang..on the 23rd juga me sent my application form to Taylor's college..then..me baru tahu juga yesterday yang me dpt call for temuduga maktab perguruan which is happen on 10th may..and got essay to do..tapi belum but..look through ja soalan2 dia hari 2..haha..nt la sy buat./.boleh ba 2 kn..


KK trip(24th-25th of april 2010)


so actually benda ni memang best..tp malas mo tulis panjang2..nanti la saya bg tw in detail..klu mo tw contact me la..haha./.dui2..ahax...em..naik bas jam 8 am sama si olga in the 24th 2..smp kat kk..nico ambl..kmi pg cp..mkn dlu..sbb si nico lapar..pas2 si calen smp,pas2 tunggu si sylvia..then kmi pg men boling..haha..budu..bida sy men..lama suda tidak main kn..haha..pas2 men pool ja..kejap ja..saya la..haha..then go watch movie..kick-ass..ow..memang best tu movie..totally ah..saya sangat suka..2 thumbs up liao..haha.then jumpa pina...we all went to SR warisan..mkn2 sana..plus cerita2..smp jam 6 ka 2..pas2 said our goodbyes..then pg beach..mkn2 sana..next balik rumah si I..penat ow..tp sekali jam 3 juga kmi tidur..pnya la banyak kmi cerita..tidak tahu la..haha...pa mo jd..du..routine suda 2 untuk kami kn..haha...


25th april-

bangun jam 8..astaga..berpa jam ja tidur..breakfast..pas2 tgk tv..siap2..mandi2..kol si N suru ambl kmi..pas2 lunch..chao..off 2 cp..pg windows shopping jap..went 2 warisan..bought clothes 8 EX-boutique..huhu..a shirt only ah..sorry la..haha...then pg Big-App..mkn donut la..pa lg..blk cp..jmpa dorang2..cer2..3.30 pm..naik kereta off 2 padang merdeka..saying goodbyes..jump into bus..heading back keningau..say bye2 2 my friends and kk...huhu...datz ol..my short(really short trip) 2 keningau...


APPRECIATION :

THANK YOU 2 WAWAN'S FAMS AND HIMSELF..SI NICO SBB JD OUR TRAVEL GUIDE HAHA./ACTUALY DRIVER KMI LA..AHAX..EM..SEPA LG AH??SMA SEMUA LA..LUV2...HUHU

loooooooooooooon time again..

okay..memang lama sudah saya tidak mengemaskini blog saya ini..haha..saya sedang mencuba untuk menulis dalam Bahasa Melayu yang formal dan betul setelah sekian lama tidak membuat penulisan Bahasa Melayu yang sebetulnya seperti tempoh masa yang lama juga saya tidak mengemaskini blog saya ini..: ok..straight to the point..banyak la terjadi..malas aq mo update blog ne..huu.ok briefly..

studies' offers..

• em..matriks saya tidak dapt..bukn rezeki kot.
• last saturday..which is 10th of april..went to uitm sabah..got temuduga for asasi TESL..went well..hopefully..thanks be to God..finger crossed..spya dpt..amin..
• maktab perguruan??xtw lg masih

• so far..itu ja yg aq ble update psl future study aq..like mcm sedih la jg kn..matriks tidak dapat..so biarla.

driving stuffs

• actually kan..12th april tu kn..aq JPJ test swa ba..tp xdpt..gagal aq..d bukit 2 suda aq gagal..dui..pa mo jadi..so..19th april ne aq re-take..hopefully saya dapat la..cross finger*..amen..xsanggup lg menanggung kegagalan..

hazel,amoi and sylvia pay a visit 2 keningau
- cerita dia mcm ne..8th april dorang 3 ne pg keningau la..ikut si olga..then jumpa besok nya..9th april..jln2..kunun ba..sekejap ja ne..mkn2 sma dorang d honey sweet cafe..sekejap ja jmpa dorang..mo pg kk kn 2 petang..ada interview ne..huhu..so tats ol..

norsyazwani's bufday..
- haha..ini lawak..yg 2 ari kn..bila 2 ah..ow ya..13th april..bufday si wanie ba..then kmi ada plan la knn mo pg mkn ne..haha..sekali terus pop up 1 plan..pg mkn rojak d warung yg area sini2 ja ba 2..haha..then jam 3 la..brkoling la knn ne kmi..haha..ok2..set..terus me sedia la..jalan kaki wha..xjg jauh la..sekali smp jalan besar..hujan turun..mendung suda ba 2 tym 2..haha..tp xlebat..me kol wanie..dia ckp..dia tunggu dpn golf club suda..jalan ja la sy..haha..hujan la..drizzle only ba tat..tp angin kuat..smp la kmi..haha..mkn rojak..sedap wha..sanggup ne kmi brjln semata2 mw mkn rojak ja.n sambut bufday dia..walaupn xjg la sebnarnya celbrtaion..hha..smart2 ow..tym 2 napa la me xbw kereta..even fail kn..ble suda ba 2..mst confident ma..haha..huhu..

so apa lagi sy mo ckp ne..anything i miss out to be blogged??haha...can't think of it ow..f me ingat nt me send dlm next blog la ya..haha..if wanna check pics on my interview and wanie's bufday..feel free 2 check my facebook..well,im still not used to know how to put a link in my blog..nt aq bljr..so bru senang kn 2 all reades..for you convenience..em..mlas mo upload photos..so for anyone yg tw FB aq..chck2 la pics aq sana..daa..bye..huhu

goes on..dilemma..

as usual today..no extraordinary..well..today is my last hour of driving lesson..haha..em..btw..td kn time tunggu my tutor 2 pick me up kn..im sittin down 2 satu bench diz..terus..ada la 2 mamas ne wif their kids sittin next to me..they are talkin..i had no idea wut 2 they talkin ..haha..then..got diz 1 of the mums is holding a cup of water..ala..cmna arg..yang drinking water but bukan dlm bottle but dlm satu tmpt yg mcm cup 2..then a sheet of plastic is covered its upper side..got it??huhu.then ba..she was holding that after her daughter is no longer want that..then she threw it away straight to da drain..but..did u noe..the dustbin is provided and the dustbin is not far..less than 30seconds 2 go and return..dui ba..xda kesedaran btl ba..pa la mo jd..plus they are not local..so ble tw la kn..em..bahasa dorang 2 pn entah bahasa pa..astga..dui as a sabahan..terasa la ba kn..buang smpah gitu ja..btl la ba..2 dustbin bkn nya jauh pn..huh./.wat to do..ok next..haha..went to litar..bljr bukit..haha..lawak..2 kali me turun blk..x ckp kuat mo naik..haha..but ok la jg..ahax..then gone home..ahax..lalala..notink to do..diz nite is fun..had chit-chatted a lot of frenx..huhu..best la jg..ym-ing with miss sukma..we are talkin no crap..we talkin some adult stuffs..matured huh??hha..plus..me wanna cut hair ba ne..long ody..xtahan suda..rimas..me dun prefer long hair as me ssh mo kc style.haha..dui..ahax..entah la..such in dilemma..haha..ok..la..till then..

raining,,, a Bless from God

it is raining here...

huhu..nice..it is raining right now..in keningau..like it gonna be the whole afternoon the rain is pouring,,thanks be to God.that He grant us with this blessed..after a long time the rain doesn't comes...huhu..so nice..i had my nap tadi..haha..sejuk2 best2..klu d dorm ne..dui..confirm prep petang x aq pg..haha...then td my mum juz went home from her meeting..she bought kuih-muih..yai..sedap..ahax..got karipap..i2 ja aq nmpk..ptg2 ne..sejuk2 lae..mkn2 kuih..minum hot choc..or hot milo..sedapp...enjoy..hahaha..ptg2 klu hujan time d mrsm..haha..prep petang xpg..klu pg pn..bkn study,,haha..men2..enjoyin the rain..klu rmi org turum riadah..pg la jg..bez jg ow..riadah tym2 hujan..dui..lama suda x pg riadah..ahax..plus..klu dtg gila..lepas lunch ja..jam 2 g2..hujan2 suda..tidur the whole afternoon smp jam 6 pn blh..haha..duh???astaga...haha,,bez ow...ahax..huhu,..menyingkap semula cerita2 lama d mrsm..haha..so many great things happen there..huh??u juz miss it..ahax...

new post..

wow..long time din post anything..haha..so many things happen..continue my driving lesson..draws 2 end..huhu..went back to my school..mrsm kota kinabalu..visited a lot of frenz and teachers...accompany my friend irneza zaihan..haha..hv fun that time..totally have fun ow..ahax..nt next post me cer ok..haha..wut to say again..today went to drive again..4pm suda..ptg suda..my tutor pn looks exhausted..then me terus fikir..he penat suda..msT dia bad mood 2..em..btl ne..petang suda ba..me da last person he taught..you can noe la kn..petang ba 2 suda..haha..learned parking today..ahax..ok la..sama buat latihan 3 penjuru..can do lae..haha..wow..ahax..miss my friends and bros..huhu

long time suda ne..

wow..long time suda ne sy xbloggin..haha..many things happen(banyak meh??)
haha..diz school break is sucks..haha..mcm la sy ne masih in school life..cuti ja sy 3 bulan suda..haha..i said it so coz didn't went anywer diz hols..quite boring la..buka skul bru sy jln..haha...btw..my driving license is still x yet done..sucks ow..lama suda ne..4bulan suda..lama gila ow..bukan la apa kn sy mo ckp..kwn2 sy yg len dpt suda...yg sma2 bengkel pn ada suda lesen..baru la ne..aiya..mcm terlampau ramai ba org my tutor pegang..shutZ..mw jg sy ckp..but u noe la kn cmna jg..got segan la ba jg kn..dui~~~~..haha..many times i felt down because of the same reason..never changed-huh..upset o me diz..lalala..life is so beautiful..many things in our life are so wonderful to be explored and enjoyed..huhu..well..best of luck 2 me so that i can enrol in the best university and pursue my dream and ambition..amen...

journey of me..

long time x blogging...many things happen surrounding me...from spm to everyday life..
my spm result was announced..em..quite ok la...dun want to talk bout dat..haha....it is school mid sem break rite now..for those r still in school la...em..wut to say...haha..quite banyak berjalan jg la kali ne..haha...fun jg la..then i had dreamed sumthing dat is really unexpected..haha....school's out..then banyak la 2 MORON2 yg annoying on9..benci saya...haha...damn...nt la me talk lg ah..next posy\t...

freaking out.terrifying

omg..tomoroow will be 11th march ody..so scared...bloggin at this time surely relieve a bit my tension...i am totally scared la..to be honest..spm!!!!!!many people said SPM is most important as it will decide you which path are you heading to...ow...argh...stress...the ecpectations from my family is too high..i can feel it...studying in boarding school will give you a higher expecattaions from your surrounding..i do not say that studying in regular schools are not..but from my point of view as a student.i am studying in boarding school..so i can feel their hopes towrds me are really high..and they expect me to be the best and get a flying colours result...huh!i scared that i can't fulfill the expectations..even the teachers are giving their hopes to us..even the society..you do not want to be insulted by society.."h was studied in boarding school..but result..average ja".ooow i dun want to be like that..dammit..why now i realised all of these stuffz...ow..forgot it..there is no time to regret..the result will be announced in less than 12 hours..all the best for me..hope God will grant me peace and success..so that i can further my study and be an excellent person and contributes to my family.religion and nation..amen...welll.lots of luck..amen..

freaking out.terrifying

SPM mo kuar suda...
11th march 2010..
bersamaan hari khamis..
mati la ne..
i'm scared ow..
cmna la my result tu nt ah...
hrp2 bgs la..
amen..
probz lg skrg..
aq xtw mo pg mna pasni...

watchin tv??

i had watched a brand new show juz now..it was called...house of jazmin...it is a reality tv show about a talented young designer who wanna be a fabulous and success designer..well indeed the designs of her clothing line is so fresh and superb..and it is inspires me to be a succeed person just like her...

so this is jazmin..

jazmin and her family plus her bff

jazmin again...

so..here is jazmin with her tv show..

moving on..

nothing much happen lately...huhu....normal...today went to driving lesson again..better la..much better than the previous one..ahax....ok suda la me handle..mo practice lg...ahax..bought ice cream shake today...choc marh..sedap..cravin' 4 it..haha..tiba2 pula..lately the weather is too hot...can't stand it..baru dua hari jalan pn can cpot the difference on my skin..haha...so like wut care bout skin..haha..yup!really wanna grab sunblock..prevent the uv ray to penetrate more and protect me from harmful rays..well you know..pollution is so surround us right now..haha..woah..wut else wanna talk...life is so meaningful..lala...dup dap dup dap....really scared..you know why jg kn..hope all the best for me..amen..

exhausted...

huh...woke up at 8 am..but then me turun bwh..sambung tidur d couch...haha..then 8.40am..me woke up..doing a lil'bit haus chores(as usual)...on9 then..called ma mum see if she can pick me up to pekan...nope..her car in workshop...then..took my shower..clothes-on...go to the main road..to board bus...huh!!!!!!panas...can't stand it...arrived at kedai..almost 11 am...waitin 4 like 15mins...huhu..my tutor picked me up..ow..today lesson was so embarassed...got a couple of times mati enjin at round about..huhu..practice makes perfect..then done driving lesson...texted olga if she olredy had her luch or not..then i said i wanna treat her..haha..to fulfill my janji with her la..then went to honey sweet chicken rice..both of us ordered spagheti bolognaise...ate..chit-chateed with her..she went back to work..meet the barber to cut my hair..then done..almost 2pm ody...called my friend jourdan if she arrived ody or not...walked to SFX..meet him n his choral speaking team..taught them a bit...done around 4.30pm++..then we went to night market..bought a drink...huhu..said our goodbyes..met up with mrsm practical counsellor last year...huhu...jump on a bus...head home..tired liao..so tired..fuckin tired..nap a while..took my shower..on9..think like wanna take early n good sleep..chao..

so what??you moron..

so what la kalu dorang x contact ko suda..dui..terang2 ne ba kn cyrill ko appear on9 sma dorang..bukannya dorang send ko apa2 pn..jd kenapala...sial la mo sy yg terhegeh2 pg mnta puji.gete2 pg tnya doranh khabar..fuck la..shit la..em..so what la klu sy jd forgotten pn sma dorang..bukan dorang ja hidup di dunia n..lala...em..ble hidup jg tanpa dorang..biar la ba..true friends never die kn..but apa la 2 meaning 2 sma dorang..mcm palui ja..haha...huhu...sy xkisah pn..actually memang i feel sad jg la...we were friends before..em..malas nya sy mo ckp ne..memang damnly sad la ba diz...i realy love them as my friends..but seems everyone have their own life suda..tapi saya ja still relying da old life..duh???napa jg im been so dumb ah..trip mo jd loyal person kunun...dui...damnz....yai..malas la ne...benci sy..xda mood suda..nt ja la..

damn+happy+sad+down=taste of life...

huhu..woke up 3 times diz morning before da rwal life began..7.20,8.30,9.25..haha...dunno y...ahax...sleepy kot...notink much to do diz day..washed da dishes...cleanin a bit of the house...continue downloading songs...fb-ing..gamin sorority life..leveled up again lvl 101 ody...haha...then my tutor called..3pm=lesson begin..huhu...surfin internet searchin for menu-dui..wannabe chef suda o me..ahax...1st mo mask ayam masak merah..but sudah masak ari 2..then mo masak ayam masak kicap la plak..but boring sudah..then finally masak ayam masak madu..huhu..not bad ow..taste so nice..but madu dia x berapa terasa...da curry powder is so strong kot.haha..but still nice..from my point of view la..haha..watching tv..then waiting for 2.30 pm to get ready..sleepy plak..huhu..then...follow my dad pg spot i dealed wif my tutor...get into the car...he drived a bit then me took over..haha...this time it is smoother..haha...ok jg la..xjg brpa teruk..but the best part is..my tutor tuning on music..then at dat time bad romance song by lady gaga was played..haha..while drivin at the same time also..me singing that song..haha...relax wa diz time...chill la a bit..huhu..then i drivved until reached my house..saying goodbye..that's all..huhu...watchin tv...bathing my youngest bro....so notty la him ..haha..then fellin a bit down when remember those person...plus sleepy..get to my room..playin some really slow song..like..promise in the dark by keri hillsong...candle-hey monday..wut else arh??em...forgot already..huhu..then me fall asleep..woke up..like wanna said double f***..watever..went down..ate watermelon...watched tv..on9..em..i don't feel like wat to talk about the sad part..lazy to be...chao...


p/s: i really wanna sayin those bad words rite now..so geram......