goes on..dilemma..

as usual today..no extraordinary..well..today is my last hour of driving lesson..haha..em..btw..td kn time tunggu my tutor 2 pick me up kn..im sittin down 2 satu bench diz..terus..ada la 2 mamas ne wif their kids sittin next to me..they are talkin..i had no idea wut 2 they talkin ..haha..then..got diz 1 of the mums is holding a cup of water..ala..cmna arg..yang drinking water but bukan dlm bottle but dlm satu tmpt yg mcm cup 2..then a sheet of plastic is covered its upper side..got it??huhu.then ba..she was holding that after her daughter is no longer want that..then she threw it away straight to da drain..but..did u noe..the dustbin is provided and the dustbin is not far..less than 30seconds 2 go and return..dui ba..xda kesedaran btl ba..pa la mo jd..plus they are not local..so ble tw la kn..em..bahasa dorang 2 pn entah bahasa pa..astga..dui as a sabahan..terasa la ba kn..buang smpah gitu ja..btl la ba..2 dustbin bkn nya jauh pn..huh./.wat to do..ok next..haha..went to litar..bljr bukit..haha..lawak..2 kali me turun blk..x ckp kuat mo naik..haha..but ok la jg..ahax..then gone home..ahax..lalala..notink to do..diz nite is fun..had chit-chatted a lot of frenx..huhu..best la jg..ym-ing with miss sukma..we are talkin no crap..we talkin some adult stuffs..matured huh??hha..plus..me wanna cut hair ba ne..long ody..xtahan suda..rimas..me dun prefer long hair as me ssh mo kc style.haha..dui..ahax..entah la..such in dilemma..haha..ok..la..till then..

raining,,, a Bless from God

it is raining here...

huhu..nice..it is raining right now..in keningau..like it gonna be the whole afternoon the rain is pouring,,thanks be to God.that He grant us with this blessed..after a long time the rain doesn't comes...huhu..so nice..i had my nap tadi..haha..sejuk2 best2..klu d dorm ne..dui..confirm prep petang x aq pg..haha...then td my mum juz went home from her meeting..she bought kuih-muih..yai..sedap..ahax..got karipap..i2 ja aq nmpk..ptg2 ne..sejuk2 lae..mkn2 kuih..minum hot choc..or hot milo..sedapp...enjoy..hahaha..ptg2 klu hujan time d mrsm..haha..prep petang xpg..klu pg pn..bkn study,,haha..men2..enjoyin the rain..klu rmi org turum riadah..pg la jg..bez jg ow..riadah tym2 hujan..dui..lama suda x pg riadah..ahax..plus..klu dtg gila..lepas lunch ja..jam 2 g2..hujan2 suda..tidur the whole afternoon smp jam 6 pn blh..haha..duh???astaga...haha,,bez ow...ahax..huhu,..menyingkap semula cerita2 lama d mrsm..haha..so many great things happen there..huh??u juz miss it..ahax...

new post..

wow..long time din post anything..haha..so many things happen..continue my driving lesson..draws 2 end..huhu..went back to my school..mrsm kota kinabalu..visited a lot of frenz and teachers...accompany my friend irneza zaihan..haha..hv fun that time..totally have fun ow..ahax..nt next post me cer ok..haha..wut to say again..today went to drive again..4pm suda..ptg suda..my tutor pn looks exhausted..then me terus fikir..he penat suda..msT dia bad mood 2..em..btl ne..petang suda ba..me da last person he taught..you can noe la kn..petang ba 2 suda..haha..learned parking today..ahax..ok la..sama buat latihan 3 penjuru..can do lae..haha..wow..ahax..miss my friends and bros..huhu

long time suda ne..

wow..long time suda ne sy xbloggin..haha..many things happen(banyak meh??)
haha..diz school break is sucks..haha..mcm la sy ne masih in school life..cuti ja sy 3 bulan suda..haha..i said it so coz didn't went anywer diz hols..quite boring la..buka skul bru sy jln..haha...btw..my driving license is still x yet done..sucks ow..lama suda ne..4bulan suda..lama gila ow..bukan la apa kn sy mo ckp..kwn2 sy yg len dpt suda...yg sma2 bengkel pn ada suda lesen..baru la ne..aiya..mcm terlampau ramai ba org my tutor pegang..shutZ..mw jg sy ckp..but u noe la kn cmna jg..got segan la ba jg kn..dui~~~~..haha..many times i felt down because of the same reason..never changed-huh..upset o me diz..lalala..life is so beautiful..many things in our life are so wonderful to be explored and enjoyed..huhu..well..best of luck 2 me so that i can enrol in the best university and pursue my dream and ambition..amen...

journey of me..

long time x blogging...many things happen surrounding me...from spm to everyday life..
my spm result was announced..em..quite ok la...dun want to talk bout dat..haha....it is school mid sem break rite now..for those r still in school la...em..wut to say...haha..quite banyak berjalan jg la kali ne..haha...fun jg la..then i had dreamed sumthing dat is really unexpected..haha....school's out..then banyak la 2 MORON2 yg annoying on9..benci saya...haha...damn...nt la me talk lg ah..next posy\t...

freaking out.terrifying

omg..tomoroow will be 11th march ody..so scared...bloggin at this time surely relieve a bit my tension...i am totally scared la..to be honest..spm!!!!!!many people said SPM is most important as it will decide you which path are you heading to...ow...argh...stress...the ecpectations from my family is too high..i can feel it...studying in boarding school will give you a higher expecattaions from your surrounding..i do not say that studying in regular schools are not..but from my point of view as a student.i am studying in boarding school..so i can feel their hopes towrds me are really high..and they expect me to be the best and get a flying colours result...huh!i scared that i can't fulfill the expectations..even the teachers are giving their hopes to us..even the society..you do not want to be insulted by society.."h was studied in boarding school..but result..average ja".ooow i dun want to be like that..dammit..why now i realised all of these stuffz...ow..forgot it..there is no time to regret..the result will be announced in less than 12 hours..all the best for me..hope God will grant me peace and success..so that i can further my study and be an excellent person and contributes to my family.religion and nation..amen...welll.lots of luck..amen..

freaking out.terrifying

SPM mo kuar suda...
11th march 2010..
bersamaan hari khamis..
mati la ne..
i'm scared ow..
cmna la my result tu nt ah...
hrp2 bgs la..
amen..
probz lg skrg..
aq xtw mo pg mna pasni...

watchin tv??

i had watched a brand new show juz now..it was called...house of jazmin...it is a reality tv show about a talented young designer who wanna be a fabulous and success designer..well indeed the designs of her clothing line is so fresh and superb..and it is inspires me to be a succeed person just like her...

so this is jazmin..

jazmin and her family plus her bff

jazmin again...

so..here is jazmin with her tv show..

moving on..

nothing much happen lately...huhu....normal...today went to driving lesson again..better la..much better than the previous one..ahax....ok suda la me handle..mo practice lg...ahax..bought ice cream shake today...choc marh..sedap..cravin' 4 it..haha..tiba2 pula..lately the weather is too hot...can't stand it..baru dua hari jalan pn can cpot the difference on my skin..haha...so like wut care bout skin..haha..yup!really wanna grab sunblock..prevent the uv ray to penetrate more and protect me from harmful rays..well you know..pollution is so surround us right now..haha..woah..wut else wanna talk...life is so meaningful..lala...dup dap dup dap....really scared..you know why jg kn..hope all the best for me..amen..

exhausted...

huh...woke up at 8 am..but then me turun bwh..sambung tidur d couch...haha..then 8.40am..me woke up..doing a lil'bit haus chores(as usual)...on9 then..called ma mum see if she can pick me up to pekan...nope..her car in workshop...then..took my shower..clothes-on...go to the main road..to board bus...huh!!!!!!panas...can't stand it...arrived at kedai..almost 11 am...waitin 4 like 15mins...huhu..my tutor picked me up..ow..today lesson was so embarassed...got a couple of times mati enjin at round about..huhu..practice makes perfect..then done driving lesson...texted olga if she olredy had her luch or not..then i said i wanna treat her..haha..to fulfill my janji with her la..then went to honey sweet chicken rice..both of us ordered spagheti bolognaise...ate..chit-chateed with her..she went back to work..meet the barber to cut my hair..then done..almost 2pm ody...called my friend jourdan if she arrived ody or not...walked to SFX..meet him n his choral speaking team..taught them a bit...done around 4.30pm++..then we went to night market..bought a drink...huhu..said our goodbyes..met up with mrsm practical counsellor last year...huhu...jump on a bus...head home..tired liao..so tired..fuckin tired..nap a while..took my shower..on9..think like wanna take early n good sleep..chao..

so what??you moron..

so what la kalu dorang x contact ko suda..dui..terang2 ne ba kn cyrill ko appear on9 sma dorang..bukannya dorang send ko apa2 pn..jd kenapala...sial la mo sy yg terhegeh2 pg mnta puji.gete2 pg tnya doranh khabar..fuck la..shit la..em..so what la klu sy jd forgotten pn sma dorang..bukan dorang ja hidup di dunia n..lala...em..ble hidup jg tanpa dorang..biar la ba..true friends never die kn..but apa la 2 meaning 2 sma dorang..mcm palui ja..haha...huhu...sy xkisah pn..actually memang i feel sad jg la...we were friends before..em..malas nya sy mo ckp ne..memang damnly sad la ba diz...i realy love them as my friends..but seems everyone have their own life suda..tapi saya ja still relying da old life..duh???napa jg im been so dumb ah..trip mo jd loyal person kunun...dui...damnz....yai..malas la ne...benci sy..xda mood suda..nt ja la..

damn+happy+sad+down=taste of life...

huhu..woke up 3 times diz morning before da rwal life began..7.20,8.30,9.25..haha...dunno y...ahax...sleepy kot...notink much to do diz day..washed da dishes...cleanin a bit of the house...continue downloading songs...fb-ing..gamin sorority life..leveled up again lvl 101 ody...haha...then my tutor called..3pm=lesson begin..huhu...surfin internet searchin for menu-dui..wannabe chef suda o me..ahax...1st mo mask ayam masak merah..but sudah masak ari 2..then mo masak ayam masak kicap la plak..but boring sudah..then finally masak ayam masak madu..huhu..not bad ow..taste so nice..but madu dia x berapa terasa...da curry powder is so strong kot.haha..but still nice..from my point of view la..haha..watching tv..then waiting for 2.30 pm to get ready..sleepy plak..huhu..then...follow my dad pg spot i dealed wif my tutor...get into the car...he drived a bit then me took over..haha...this time it is smoother..haha...ok jg la..xjg brpa teruk..but the best part is..my tutor tuning on music..then at dat time bad romance song by lady gaga was played..haha..while drivin at the same time also..me singing that song..haha...relax wa diz time...chill la a bit..huhu..then i drivved until reached my house..saying goodbye..that's all..huhu...watchin tv...bathing my youngest bro....so notty la him ..haha..then fellin a bit down when remember those person...plus sleepy..get to my room..playin some really slow song..like..promise in the dark by keri hillsong...candle-hey monday..wut else arh??em...forgot already..huhu..then me fall asleep..woke up..like wanna said double f***..watever..went down..ate watermelon...watched tv..on9..em..i don't feel like wat to talk about the sad part..lazy to be...chao...


p/s: i really wanna sayin those bad words rite now..so geram......

-NIL-

WELL...nothing to be expected when they coming back...em..juz still wondering are they still remembering me??still they consider me as their friend or used to be their friend in the past..em..watevs..malas nak kisah..but i am feeling sad about that though...really sad....

-lOST-

50th post...

wow...it is da 50th post i had posted to my blog since i had created my blog last year(exact date lupa la)..huhu..tonite i am feeling down..so down..i dunno y..i dun see da real reason to be down tonite...i am feeling gloom rite now..huh...fonder??????i think so..that is the only reason that will makes my self turn down...i totally miss them...huh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!let bygone be bygone..stop it..cut it off...

movies i wanted so bad...

there is a lot of movies that hits the cinema right now..ow gosh..i wanna watch them all badly...why here xda cinema ye...ow dammit..gonna miss a lot of movies la ne...damn...btw..here are some of the movies that i wanna watch badly...

it was different...

nothing much changed bout ma life...seriously..i am now fuckin scared ody coz SPM result will announce soon..ow..gosh...so damn scared..hopefully that i will get a flying colours result...amen...em..lately..wut changed ah??ow ya..i got a text from my drivin tutor..he said that my L is available already..went 2 da drivin institute on thursday..bought da 8 hours lesson coupon..still not yet inform my tutor...l8r will inform him..huhu..me like no mood ody coz da progress of gettin a drivin license was so slow ow..really...damn slow...waitin 4 da L to come out was so pain...it took about 3 weeks 2 be ready..wut da heck??well...juz forget it...really..i realised that i keep thinkin bout my sux life..huhu..and that strange feelin about thinkin my past in mrsm...thinking what i did wrong in my past..what i had been sinned into..what da expriences that so valuable..that taught me to be real human being...huh!!!!!!!!!if the time machine is so invented...i probably the 1st one grab it and take that opportunity 2 do the right things in the past...but time cannot be set back to the past..God created time is so priceless..so that human can be more aware,thinking what to do to appreciate time..think a million of times so we do not do the wrong decision that bring us to other consequences that we never expect it to be....huh...life is not so simple as quoted by anybody else.....we cannot be so perfect...

egoistic??>

we were used to be closed la..in da past..tym cuti..textin2 wif her..ym-ing wif her..at mktb pn kmi slalu jmpa..crta2...went 2 bazar 2getha..then got 1 point..me n her like lost connection..we dun used 2 textin each otha'..no more ym-ing..plus stuffz we had done before..b4 she goin back 2 mrsm in january..we stil got textin l..but like 1 or 2 texts then hang..juz like that..then me got text ma dude=junior kat mrsm 2..talkin bout stories happen in mrsm especially bout our closed frenz..then he told me that she got new bf suda.as she n her previous bf suda broke up.em..happy la jg for her...she gt text me jg yg her currently bf 2 mmg ada bw dy couple dulu but she reject..dunno y..then suddenly me knew tat she in a relationship ody..so since then..no..not yet..she got text me jg la..but that is why diz title name egoistic...me dun reply her text..i ody post bout tat story in ma previous post..huhu..then since then..me n her really lost connections..me gt jg texts her wishin her gong xi fa chai..but..x delivered..myB she changed her mobile number ody..em..me so sad la jg..coz dulu both rapat kn..spendin each otha'..emm...told her a lot of stories..then now..entahla..clueless ody me diz..me rindu her la jg..then got saw her latest pix..em..tba2 me rasa so bersalah x layan dy dulu..em..wut else can i say..miss her...

CNY..1st day..

huhu..14th february 2010...it is sunday..it is chinese new year..it is valentine day..wallup..so many things happen today..but then..i dun celebratin valentine...even..i dun text or wish anyone with valentine wishes..juz like usual..valentine was no-no 4 me coz em..xfeelink la 2 celbrate that..who cares..okay..strght 2 CNY..woke up at 8.00am++ suda la..me kena suruh my uncle cookin fried rice..daa..xbrpa sedap me msk ne kali..haha..x so biasa cookin in large quantity..haha..then at 11 am..go mandi..haha..aiyo so hot la kat kuala penyu ne..haha..havin our lunch,..sedap...my uncle yg chef 2 msk..then ma sis called..haha...homesick..she is crying..ahax..xdpt blk kn..huhu...then watchin with ma cuzzies..lot of movies lorh diz CNY..haha..then at 3pm..ma mum asked us to get ready..lalala..wanna go visting ma other cousin..duh...so hot ow...arrived at 1st house,.ahax...ma mum chit chatted wif dat aunt.,,dunno la wut da name..got twin der..so cute..their cheeks were so chubby liao..aiyo..why dun took pix ow..then next haus...juz like 3 mins only der..so many people..then go 2 ma auntie haus lg..sittin..here me got ma 2nd hong pau ody..next haus..my late grandma pnya adik..haha..even they oso x celebratin CNY juz like us..but diz is da time 2 meet each otha kn..then next haus..diz is 4th haus ody..feelin exhausted ody..so tired ody liao..this tym me follow ma dad pnya krta..b4 diz followed ma uncle pnya car,,huhu,,,then go 2 ma aunt pnya rumah..ahax..shade ody la da cuaca...story2 der wif both of uncle and auntie..then go to ma late grandpa's bro..waiting..got hong pau..balik rumah..brpa ody haus 2 in 1 petang only..haha..so full plus tired ow..then we ol go mandi..makan lg..then my uncle from kk come ma mum's younger bro came..huhu..that haus became more merrier plus chaotic..huhu..imagine la..there is a bunch of kids under 8 years old..and a few of us aged at da range 12-18..me da oldest..haha..as da otha cousin x goin home diz tym..ahax..then ma auntie karen gave us hong pau..(luv ya aunt)..haha..then we watched muVs..huhu,..so pening ma head urus da sleeping place 4 ol of us,,huhu..slept at 1 am ka 2..2 muvS back 2 back..a..penat liao..ma hong pao around 50-60 la in 1st day..huhu..1st day end...